Chapter 61
Previously
You stink, get in the shower!
-I stink?
He picks me up in a potato pouch, goes into the bathroom, turns on the water and throws me into the shower, fully dressed. “You're going to regret this, Shawn!
He laughs and starts to run, I catch up and jump on him, we fall and I end up underneath him. My eyes lock with his and I lose myself in his grey gaze.
Present
“You're so beautiful...
He kisses my forehead.
-so intelligent...
He kisses my cheek.
-So boring.
He kisses the tip of my nose.
-But that's why I love you more than I'm allowed to love, you're perfect.
He kisses me on the mouth and the kiss gets more and more passionate and wild.
-Shawn...
-Please, Ana, I want to show everyone that you're mine, that no more males come sniffing around you. You're the woman of my life Anaéve, let me prove it to you...
My eyes are watering.
-But not now...
He stands up and glares at me.
-I'm going to get in the shower,” he says curtly.
He didn’t understand what I meant...
I get dressed and go downstairs to finish dinner. About thirty minutes later, Shawn arrives, doesn't look at me and goes into the living room.
-Shawn...
-shut up Anaéve! I don't even understand why I'm staying with you when thousands of girls would love to be in your shoes he spits in my face.
Tears well up in my eyes and he gets up, comes dangerously close to me and slams me against the wall so hard my head hurts.
I should mark you even if you don't want me to, but I don't, you know why? Because I love you like crazy, but you don't give a f**k, all that matters is you and only you! You've never asked yourself how I feel when you refuse! You only think about yourself You don't know how hard it is for me to know that the woman in my life is walking around without my brand to show that you belong to me.
Vm pushing him away.
That's just it! You don’t own me Shawn! I'm not an object! When are you gonna learn that?!
-And you, when are you going to understand that I've always loved you, that you're the love of my life, the mother of my children and that I can't live without you?! When are you going to understand that I want you to wear my brand to show all those horny males that you're already taken and that if they ever touch just one hair on your head, I'l cut their balls off? Why won't you accept? I know I'm not the best man on earth, I know you've inherited me a lot more than I have, but I love you so much...
I'm kissing her.
Earlier, you didn’t understand the meaning of my sentence...
He presses his forehead against mine.
-We've been together for two months, why don’t you want to?
-I meant not right now, not on the floor of our bedroom with guests arriving any minute. I wanted you to mark me tonight, when they've gone, because after the marking, I want to have my first time.
I bow my head.
-And I didn’t want you to mark me now, because the guests are arriving and we wouldn't have been able to...
I was cut off by her lips.
-I'm sorry I didn't tell you in the right way...
He lifts my head and I see that he's smiling like a child.
-Do you really want me to do it?
Yes, yes I'm ready, but not now, our guests have arrived.
A few seconds later, the doorbell rings, and before I can open the door, Shawn is whispering in my ear:
-I've got a feeling it's going to be a long evening...
I blush and open the door.
-I blush and open the door.
~Hello Anaéve, how are you? asks Valdir's wife.
Very well and you Lara?
~I'm fine, thank you.
Ismile at her and take her coat.
“Thank you for coming to dinner...
It's nothing, the boys have a lot of explaining to do.
I nod and Valdir comes over to me.
-How are you?
-How am I doing?
~Me too, did Shawn take his pills before we started talking, otherwise it might not work.
I raise my eyebrows.
-Pills?
Shawn enters the room.
Who needs to take pills? he asks.
-you!
He drops his glass of water and glares at Valdir.
Why did you tell her?
-I'm sorry, I thought she knew because you're her soul mate!
Itake a deep breath.
-Excuse us, I'm going to speak to Shawn for a moment.
I'take Shawn's arm and lead him into our bedroom and sit on the bed.
-What do you think?
I kiss him.
Earlier, you didn't understand the meaning of my sentence...
-Well, what then?
“You're taking pills, it's not the end of the world and I don't blame you, but I wish you'd told me about it before. Why are you taking them?
I take pills because I have bipolar disorder, as you may have noticed, but I don't always take them.
~You should Shawn, if you have them it's not to look pretty in the medicine cabinet.
I'stand up and give him a hug.
~You should always take them, maybe it would stop us fighting so much.
He tightens his grip.
-I love you...
-I love you too.
He kisses me.
-S0 you took them today?
He nods.
~Right, now you've got to go and talk to your beta, please be nice and understanding...
-I won't let you down.
Ilaugh and so does he.
“You'd think I was your mother.
-Impossible, you're far too young to be my mother.
We go back downstairs and I meet Lara and Shawn Valdir in the living room.
-How's the pregnancy going?
-It's going well.
Ismile and she winces in pain.
-How's it going?
“Yes, the baby just moved, do you want to feel?
I smile.
-Can I feel it?
-0f course you can.
She takes my hand and puts it on her tummy, the baby kicks and I smile.
It's wonderful.
Alittle tear falls from my eye.
-How's that?
I wipe it away quickly.
-I'm fine.
-Ana...” says Shawn.
I get up and turn to Shawn.
-Dinner’s ready.
I put the plates on the table and we start eating in a heavy silence.
-Is everything settled? I asked.
Valdir and Shawn look at each other.
-Yes, but they're going to stay in your brother's territory until the lone wolves are no longer a threat.
I nod.
Three hours later, Valdir and Lara leave and I sit in the living room in front of the fireplace with a coffee in my hand and a blanket over my shoulders.
-Ana?
I don't answer and a few minutes later Shawn comes into the living room and sits down next to me.
I've called you a few times.
-Sorry, I didn't hear you.
-Don't lie to me, Anaéve.
I sigh and put my cup of coffee on the table behind me.