Chapter 57
Previously
I know, it was beautiful, he had a chance, but he lost it. I gave him more than one, but he ruined it every time. I love him, Mum, more than anything else in the world, but I don't want to suffer, why, why me?
~You know, your father was violent with me too in the beginning and look where we are now.
-It's not the same, Mum.
-Oh yes, I want you to find him and let him explain.
She used her alpha voice and I could only obey.
Present
-Mummy! Mummy!
There is no Mum Anaéve.
My father, Raphaél and Luka go into the kitchen.
“Your mother’s right.
I look at my father stunned.
-Anaéve?
I turn round and see Nick.
I hope you're on my side Nicky...
-No, Mom and Dad are right, Shawn made a huge mistake, but he loves you more than anything. You've got to give him a chance.
I already gave him a chance and he blew it.
My brother gasps.
You're so pig-headed! So you're going to get off your pretty little arse and you're going to go and see him.
I'm not going to see him, and that's final! I value my life anyway.
~/ll come with you.
turn around and see Valdir.
~No, you're more likely to die than I am.
-I'm coming with you to explain myself too.
Nick approaches me.
~'m not leaving you any choice, litle sister, Shawn needs you, just like you need him.
Valdir and I are teleported in front of Shawn's house.
-What do we do now?
-I've no idea.
Suddenly a branch snaps and we turn round to see a black wolf, Shawn.
Well, well, well.
He turns back into a human, naked as a worm, which makes me blush.
“You've signed your death warrant by coming back here.
-Leave Valdir out of this, he's got nothing to do with it, this is between you and me.
He growled and Valdir disappeared, Nick had come back for him.
50, Bella, why did you come here?
-Because I have to, and don't think I care about you.
He looks away.
I've been a fool and I know it, 've lost you, I've lost my last chance of having you. For you to bear my children, to be the woman I see walking down the aisle on my wedding day. I'm sorry Ana, it wasn't my way of letting off steam, I didn't think about the fact that we were a couple and that it would affect you. I'm not asking you to forgive me, because I know you won't. But I want you to know that I love you more than anything else in the world, I've been f***d the other whore, becaus seeing that I'd done all that to you, I flipped out.
~What made you change your mind, Shawn? Just three hours ago you wanted to kill me for what I did. You wanted to kill you own beta for something really stupid. I can't take any more of your mood swings. Sure you're my soul mate and I love you more than anyone, but I can't live with someone as bipolar as you.
Isee a tear roll down her cheek and I feel terrible doing this to her. I love him with all my heart, but I don’t know if I could live like that.
-After you left, I started to think, to think about the fact that you weren't in my arms any more, that I couldn't feel your skin against mine, your lips, your smell... realised that you meant a lot to me, yes we haven't known each other long, but I can’t live without you. Please, Ana...
I look away so as not to see her sad look.
I feel like you're using me Shawn, that I don't mean anything to you, that after you've had your way with me you're just going to let go and go somewhere else. I need to trust the one I love, to know that the first fight we have you're going to f**k somewhere else.
He bows his head.
-I wish I could tell you that I won't do it again, but I can't, I can't promise you that. I know it's horrible, but it's the only thing that gets me off, I know it's disgusting...
I cut him off with a kiss.
~We could try? Try to find a solution, find you something else to let off steam? I want this to work, Shawn, really do, and I'm ready for what might happen, but think of me before you sleep with someone else, because then I'll leave and never come back. I'm willing to try and you?
He looks away.
I've been a fool and I know it, I've lost you, I've lost my last chance of having you. For you to bear my children, to be the woman I see walking down the aisle on my wedding day. I'm sorry Ana, it wasn't my way of letting off steam, I didn't think about the fact that we were a couple and that it would affect you. I'm not asking you to forgive me, because I know you won't. But I want you to know that I love you more than anything else in the world, I've been f****d the other whore, becaus seeing that I'd done all that to you, I lost it.
-Me too, I'm going to do everything I can to find something else to let off steam and I'm going to do everything I can to make it work.
He presses his forehead against mine and says:
-Because I love you.
Then he kisses me.
-Do you want us to let Analie and Sulivan talk to each other?
If you like.
I'turn into a she-wolf and he into a wolf, giving my she-wolf complete control and watching.
I can finally talk to you,” says Sulivan.
He moves closer to Analie and rubs his neck against mine, my wolf purring with pleasure.
~'m glad we can talk, you know I never wanted to leave you, but I'm still Anaéve. I'm always going to be on her side no matter what and if she thought being away from you was going to help her, I wasn't going to stop her.
sulivan licks my muzzle, my gemie she-wolf
lgetit.
He hands over control to Shawn and Analie does the same.
“Fl get the guest room ready for you.
I'nod and enter the house.
~Would you like me to prepare a bath for you?
I blush and laugh.
I can do it myself, you know?
He growls.
-Leave it to you, princess.
He goes upstairs and I hear the water running. After a few minutes, I go upstairs and get into the filled bathtub.
-Is everything OK? Shawn asks me through the door.
-Yes, thanks Shawn.
“You're welcome princess.
I close my eyes and relax, and half an hour later I come out and put on Shawn's jumper. I go to my room and go to bed. An hour later, when I couldn't fall asleep, I decided to get up and go into Shawn's room. I crawled under the covers and closed my eyes. Two big arms grab my waist and press me against his chest.
~Good night my love.
-Good night Shawn.
I close my eyes and fall straight to sleep.