All I Wanted

Happier by mashmellow

JANE'S POV

“Jane, I'm sorry I have to do this to you, I'm sorry I have to leave you and I'm sorry that I hurt you, you deserve better” Those words kept on repeating themselves in my head as I sat on the bare ground beside my car. I folded my legs together as the warm tears fell from my cheeks. He's gone again and this time it felt like I've lost him forever, this time it felt like it's the end and this time it felt like everything was final.

I went back to Chase's safe house as I sat on the couch hopefully waiting for him to come back. I he knew he was going to leave why did he tell me that he loved me, if he was going to leave why did he show me all of those care and emotions, why did he have s*x with me at first. I thought everything meant something but it clearly didn’t mean anything to him or perhaps he'll realize his mistakes and come back to me.

Without leaving the spot for hours and my eyes fixed on the door with my ears being at alert I heard no sound of Chase's footsteps and I still didn't lose hope on Chase as I waited patiently. The weather got dark and I checked the time on my mobile phone which I hardly use and the time was 9pm already and I haven't eaten anything aside from the breakfast I ate in the morning, I wasn't hungry.

I remained on the couch as I stared at the door and I couldn't even sleep as my mind wasn't at rest in hopes of Chase walking through the glass door but he didn't come and it was dawn already. My eyes were swollen from the tears and lack of sleep throughout the night and I gave up on the fact that he was going to return to me.

I finally stood up from the couch and I lifelessly dragged my weak body outside of the safe house. I wasn't even sure if I would be able to drive the car back to my father's house because it'll take me hours to get to my dad's house and I'm drained from all of the emotional stress already but I decided on taking the risk as I got into my car with my messy hair almost like I just survived an earthquake, I drove away from Chase's safe house constantly looking at my side mirrors hoping that Chase could just come out of the woods, tell me to stop my car, hug me, kiss me and tell me that he'll never leave me but my imaginations didn't come to pass as nothing of such happened till I left the woods.

I played some music In my car in the hopes of cheering me up but it didn't seem to be working as I turned it off with annoyance and increased the speed of my car. I just want to get home already.

After the long hours of driving to my father's house I finally got home, I parked my car in front of my Dad's house contemplating on going in or not, I've come this far to my home and now I'm not sure if I want to go in, What will I say to my Father, how will I apologise. Different thoughts ran through my head as I didn't realize that my legs were walking towards the door.

The small door knob was there fixed on the door and my hand found its way to the door knob.

“Who's there?" My Dad says but I didn't respond, maybe that's a new attitude I have. He opened the door and saw me standing in front of the door looking like a zombie

“Jane?” He says waiting for me to say something

“I'm sorry Dad” I say as I burst out in tears.

“It's fine sweetie” He says as he embraced me into his arms and patted my back gently.

“I shouldn't have left Dad 'm so sorry, I should have listened to you but I was hell bent of leaving please forgive me Dad” I say

“It's fine dear, you'll be fine” he says as he stood up to the kitchen. “You look like you haven't eaten anything since you left, how about some pizzas, I made some” he says and I smiled.

I missed my father, he’s always kind and caring and he lets things go easily without holding any grudge.

He came out of the kitchen with a plate of a whole round pizzas. “Here you go love I'll be right back” he says while handing the plate to me, he went back to the kitchen and came out with a bottle of orange juice. I love orange juice.

“I know you like it" he says and I smiled.

I took a bit out of a slice of the pizza and it was then my tummy knew it needed food, I became really hungry instantly and I ate as much as my stomach could contain gulping it down with some orange juice. When I was done eating I took the plates back to the kitchen and washed the stains off of it.

“Dad I'll be in my room" I say

“Okay sure honey but before you go to your room I'll like to have a few words with you he says and I got curious.

“What is it about”

“It's about you” he pauses “and your school” he finishes.

I knew he was going to bring out the issue if my school sooner or later because I've missed a lot of lessons and exams already.

“You have to continue your education Janey and you can't quit because of some silly kidnapper out there” he says

“He's not silly” I say as I folded my fist together. “ll go back to school and continue my education as a f*****g medicine guru” I continue as I walked to my room.

I could hear my father sighing as he mumbled some words under his breath.

I went back to my room as I fell on my bed lazily and broken, I didn't Know what to feel whether hatred or sadness but im not going to waste my time on Chase anymore. I heard a buzzing sound as I looked towards the direction of my phone I must have flung it on the bed with annoyance. I saw some strange numbers on it and a half of my mind hoped that it was Chase. “Hello?” I say waiting to get a response

“Hey newbie, where have you f*****g been” the voice over the phone says. tried to recognize that voice but it took me some. seconds to realize that it was Susan.

“Hello?” Susan says in a dramatic way waiting for me to respond.

“Hey Suzy” I say

“Where have you been pretty head” she says

“I've been at home love”

“Did you quit school already? I'm so jealous” she says.

“No I didn't but Il be back in some days time” I say

“Oh, okay cool we'll be expecting you, we love you” she says over the phone and I hung up. I threw my phone at the other side of the bed as I started to sob, I had really hoped it would be Chase but it wasn't. I don't think he's ever going to call me or see me or kiss me f**k I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore.

I realized I haven't had my bath yet so I stood up to pull off my clothes and maybe the water would drain my’ a