Alkine Academy

She hates me.

She fucking hates me.

I heard about Panta attacking her through friends of mine which literally pissed me off. That I had to even hear about it through practically strangers instead of my own damn family. Makes me feel even angrier about the situation.

I tried talking to her but to no avail. She just turned on her heels walking away from me without uttering a single word to me.

Her silence is deafening.

Ora thinks it's funny but of course he would think that my heartbreak would be a laughing matter. He's never cared about anyone but himself anyway.

Well with the exception of his brothers but sometimes I wonder if that is even true.

So here I am, standing in front of Faron's bedroom door, where she's been currently sleeping lately hoping that she will finally talk to me.

So the quote goes "To live without hope is to cease to live." – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

I can only hope.

Rapping my knuckle lightly on the bedroom door, I try to swallow my anxiety, again standing here hoping that she will see how hard I am desperately trying to earn her forgiveness.

Unfortunately it's Faron who answers the door, with smoke billowing out behind him from his over overabundant activities.

"Where's Jaci?" He knowingly smirks at me. The bastard knows how hard I have trying to win Jaci back in my corner.

"She's in the shower. I'll give you some peace with her." He walks around me still holding on to his smirk. Ignoring his audacity I walk into his bedroom closing the door gently behind me.

I hear the shower running, with Jaci humming a pleasant tune, while taking her shower.

Not knowing if I should chance it or not I hesitantly make my way over the bathroom door. Slowly opening it I see her under the under shower, washing her hair as she still hums a tune to herself.

She hasn't heard me enter, I tentatively step closer to the shower I watch her through the glass door truly mesmerized by everything about her.

I don't understand these emotions I'm having toward her. I want her immensely, with every fiber in my being, I so want her.

I need her in my life that's clearly apparent, when she was gone I was a basket case without her here.

I'm still a basket case because she will not forgive me for what I've so crudely done to her.

These feelings have me more confused than ever. My spiraling thoughts are seemingly out of control.

During my musings, I never notice, that the tables have turned, that now she is the one who is quietly observing me. Eyeing me closely.

Through the glass door that is slightly fogged up from the hot shower, I see her bright eyes latch directly unto mine curiously.

The water is cascading down her body, I watch the droplets disappear as they flow down her soft skin.

When my eyes finally reconnect with hers, I suddenly view her in a different but upsetting light.

The emotions that I have been questioning for so long now have finally reach a unwanted pinnacle.

I love her.

I not only love her but I'm in love with her

This revelation has me absolutely stunned and terrified.

What the hell do I know about love?

I'm a cold blooded killer, one that is not worthy to love nor to have it returned no matter how much I long for it to be, I can never divulge my feelings about her to her. It would only cause disaster not only for her but for me and of course my brothers. For if my enemies ever knew that I had a weakness they could shatter my world to pieces just by hurting her to hurt us. Especially me.

Maybe Ora has been right about all of this mate stuff all along?

Instead of coming here hoping to reunite with her, I'm turning on my heels hurriedly, walking completely away from the woman I love so desperately without hesitation.

I need to talk to Ora.

Now I understand why he is acting the way he does with her.

We have to find away to get her to leave us behind for good this time not just a temporary solution but a permanent one.

It's going to be extremely painful, and somehow Ora and myself are going to have to get Faron and Asher to agree with both of us. It doesn't matter what they may feel for her. We have to do this for her.

If they can see that it's the best solution and if we're all in agreement then we need to do this as quickly as we possibly can.

With a new set determination in mind, I set off hunting down Ora first. I'm sure he will be absolutely surprised at my sudden change of heart.

But that's exactly why I'm doing this.

For my heart.

I found him two hours later, out of all places in Cynthia's dorm room.

I busted in on them in the middle of a sex session. I knew he hated Jaci but I thought he stopped hooking up with other women, apparently fucking not.

Slamming the door behind me, disturbing their fornication. The both jump startle from Cynthia's bed.

"What the hell are you doing Ora?" He scowls at me over his shoulder, with Cynthia-peeking her head around him gleefully.

"What does it look like I'm doing? Either leave or join in but let me finish Cal!" Oras suggestion surprises me. Looking at Cynthia I see her smiling seductively toward me.

Stunned into submission.

A thought enters my mind.

The best way to get over someone is to get under someone right?

With my mind made up, I strip out of my clothes quickly and join Ora and Cynthia on her bed. Climbing under the covers, I reach over grabbing Cynthia's breast, popping a harden nipple in my mouth, I devour her.

Ora continues to fuck her, I raise her body up getting in behind her, as she lays with her back on my chest I slide my dick inside of her rim. Enjoying myself completely. I thrust my dick up in her ass firmly. Though I feel guilty, I know exactly what I'm doing this for. Im sacrificing myself for love, if this is the only way to get Jaci away from us and safe then I have to do it. Regardless of my own feelings about it.

I shake Jaci completely from my thoughts.

We both fuck her through the night, enjoying nearly every position possible.

Cynthia may not be the best looking woman but she satisfied both of our needs. I should admonish myself for my adulterated views.

I'm a complete asshole but once Jaci hears about our unfiltered deeds, at least she will be safe and kept alive.

The following morning Ora and I leave Cynthia's room, smiling.

When we reach our home we both see the others in the kitchen.

Faron and Asher are staring deathly daggers at us while Jaci continues to ignores not bothering to even looking in our direction.

Without hesitation we both walk toward to the kitchen table, I sit down beside Asher while Ora sits beside Faron. Jaci finishes preparing our breakfast then sets on the opposite side of Faron.

"Where have you two been all night?" Faron breaks the uncomfortable silence. Ora and I look undesiveyly at each other but Ora leaves up to me to fill them in. Ora and I both decided earlier that informing Jaci of our nightly escapades is the best way to get her leave us behind permanently. I know this is going to shatter her.

"We we're over at Cynthia's. You know Ora's main bitch? We both fucked her all night long." I hear a gasp from Asher and see disappointment on Faron's face but Jaci doesn't even acknowledge us in anyway. Her head is lowered over her plate, pushing her food around it.

"What?" A stunned Asher ask me but my attention is solely on Jaci. She just keeps eating her breakfast like what I said doesn't even matter to her in the slightest.

"You heard the man and man was she good. She's the only woman who can satisfy me. She knows how to suck a dick. She's curved in all the right places. Not some tiny little thing. She knows tricks most women don't. It was amazing. Isn't that right Cal?" Ora laughs at his own confession and still Jaci ignores us. What will it take to get her fucking attention?

If hearing about us both cheating on her doesn't dissuade her I actually have no idea what will then. This was my one and only solution. What if fails? How can I keep her safe then?

"How could you? What are both you of you trying to pull?" Faron screams at me and Ora, lashing out at both of us in outrageous fury.

"I thought you loved her?" At Asher's question Jaci finally looks up from her food.

The look in her eyes nearly floors me. The entire time I thought she wasn't showing any emotions or even heard us about our revelation but apparently she was listening. She's heartbroken over this and she's been crying. Hiding her face from us this entire time was just a shield.

I never wanted to hurt her in this way but I saw no other choice in the matter. If this is the only way to save her then I have to do it. No matter how much it hurts her or me.

"I don't love her." I bold face lie right through my damn teeth.

Ora laughs when he sees Jacis tears and hears my obvious lies, but my heart just crumbles.

Yea I was an ass and I cheated. I don't deserve her love but I sure deserve everything else she throws at me. I have to keep reminding myself that I did this for her and her safety.

Feeling the pain and deception Jaci slowly stands from the table. Eyeing Ora and I with tears streaming down her face. She's destroyed and I'm the cause of it, I fucking hate myself.

"I made a promise to myself that I would never leave you again. That I would stick by every one of you and fight for you. I never thought I would break my own promise. But as you both so clearly want me to leave then I will, but know this," she wipes the tears from her cheeks, "I may be leaving but I'm not a quitter and I will still be there for my next challenge!" Jaci takes a deep breath, she turns her gaze to Asher and Faron, "I'm sorry. I hope you understand exactly why I have to leave now," Jaci starts to leave the table but stops, turning back around shes glaring at Ora and I defensively.

"Since both of you thinks it's ok to cheat I hope you don't mind it when I do the same thing to you." She walks around Faron, preparing to leave but before she can make an exit Ora speaks up his deadly tone stops her in her tracks.

"I'll kill whoever you sleep with sweet cheeks!" Ora says it so nonchalantly that I'm actually surprised he would even say it in the first place. What the hell is he even thinking? Just let her go you don't have to be a prick about it!

"So it's ok for you to cheat but not for me? How is that fair? That's completely doubled standard Ora. But it doesn't matter what you say anyway. You lost that privilege. I'm no longer your priority. I can do exactly whatever I want to do and there nothing you can do or say about it."

"And who would you sleep with Jaci? Who would want you?" Ora is making it sound like Jaci couldn't find anyone interested in her. He is a complete moron. Jaci is beyond beautiful. He just needs to stop his bullshit already haven't we hurt her enough!

"Well the first person that comes to mind is...Braxton." And with that she storms out of the kitchen leaving four pissed off mates behind her.

"What the actual fuck? If she ends up sleeping with Braxton I will destroy you Ora! You and Cal may not want her but I damn sure do. Stop fucking with my life! Can't you see that I love her and I want her here. Why does it always have to be your damn way all the fucking time. I'm ashamed to call you my brother!" Asher storms off chasing after Jaci after his disruptive announcement. Ora and I both are staring at his exit in surprised confusion.

"You know you two deserve each other. The way both of you hurt people just to get what you want is absolutely disgusting. You both broke her heart and you act like you don't even care. I agree with Asher. I'm ashamed but I'm ashamed of both of you not just you Ora. I may not feel like Asher does about her but I do care a whole hell of a lot about her and like he said if she ends up leaving us for Braxton or some other dude I will destroy you both myself. Don't doubt that. Ever!" Faron slides his chair out from under him making it crash down on the hard linoleum flooring. Walking off without giving either of us a second glance. Man I feel like shit!

"Well fuck! I knew I would hurt Jaci but I never thought that I would hurt my brothers. I didn't realize they cared so much about her," Ora shrugs his shoulder, "doesn't matter at least we did what we set out to do. We accomplished running her off. At least that's a win." I glare across the table at Ora shocked at his demeanor.

He may not care but I do.

I had to do it.

That's what I keep telling myself over and over again. The same thoughts keeps repeating inside of my head.

It was only for her own good. I didn't want her get hurt. I want her to live dammit! Hell maybe it's selfish of me, but she's my number one priority.

But I'm the one who ended up hurting her wasn't I?

I broke her heart. I crushed her.

I did this to her and I'm not like Ora no matter what Faron and Asher might think of me. Ora doesn't care in the least if he hurts her he just wants her gone no matter what. I wanted her gone, yes.

But I wanted her gone so she wouldn't get hurt but I do care about her. Fuck!

I love her.

More than I ever thought I could love another person.

But you're not suppose to hurt the people you love and my dumb ass just hurt the only person that even matters to me. I'm a complete and utter moron.

I fucked up!

And I don't think I will be able to fix the damage!

"Yea we got what we wanted alright." I mumble ungratefully to him.

Jaci walks back into the kitchen, the tears are no longer streaming down her beautiful face. Now it's replaced with a hint of satisfaction.

She has her backpack and her suitcase in her hand. Faron and Asher are walking behind her. Trying their best to change her mind.

Jaci ignores them. Grabbing her coat off the hanger. She doesn't even give me a last glance as she exits out the door and out of our lives forever.

I can't take my eyes off the closed door. I hear my brothers talking but I just can't comprehend the words.

"Cal!" Asher screams at me, finally bringing me out of my heartbroken daze. I look into his heated eyes glaring down at me.

"Did you hear us?" Shaking my to him. Asher sighs out on aggravation. Ora is laughing at whatever Asher told him. I'm more confused now more than ever.

"She made a date with Braxton! Thanks to you two we have lost her forever. I fucking hate the both of you!" Asher strikes out, leaving Ora, Faron and myself in the kitchen pondering over what he just told us.

"What? Why would she do that?" I half mumble out basically to myself.

"Are you fucking stupid!? She did it because both of your stupid asses cheated! I promise you both if she does go out on this date and ends up being with Braxton I will not hesitate to either kill you both or disappear from your lives forever! That you can bet your asses on!" Faron storms off just like Asher did. Leaving me and Ora alone in the kitchen now. But isn't that what we both wanted? For her to leave us both alone?

My astonished gaze locks onto Ora's he's no longer laughing precariously. His mood now looks so solemn.

"I think we both fucked up in a major way." Well no shit Sherlock! The bastard finally realizes that Faron and Asher aren't playing games.

"And I just let the only woman that I will ever love walk right out the door. So yes, we both fucked up in a majorly way." I finally confess my feelings.

But it's far too late.

The damage is done and now I have to suffer the repercussions of my own adulterous actions.

Knowing full well that I just sent Jaci into Braxton waiting and willing arms.

What the hell have I done? Cynthia was not worth this. The only woman worthy in my eyes I manage to crush in just a matter of seconds.

I'm a complete jackass!

I deserve this.

I completely deserve all of this.

If Jaci does end up with another man then I can't say a damn word about it because I did it to her first.

I'll never forgive myself!