A Mysterious She-wolf

Kavi's POV

“Our mate was coming here.’

My wolf yipped happily.

Akhilan!

My senses focused on the paw thuds a few miles ago and his racing heartbeat only made me anxious. I just had learnt everything about my past. I am not ready to face him; yet. I should have visited him earlier but I was too busy to find a solution to save Maayan's life. When the sound of his paw thuds increased, my heart started racing and I did the only thing that my panicked mind was suggesting to me.

I teleported back to the realm of darkness ignoring the pleading cries of my wolf. I understand she wants to meet him. I can't face him now. I don't even know what I would feel if I see his face now. Maayan was occupying my mind totally but Akhilan...

I am just... avoiding his topic from myself. Even after knowing my past, I could feel the same love for Akhilan in my heart. The confusion and the feel of betraying one for another had been eating my heart.

I want to understand this whole soul connection thing. Maayan had a string of connection with my soul and my death didn't affect him because of the connection was severed recently and my mistrust made the minimal damage to him. But his love for me kept our connection alive and when I said I trust him to release him from Qywesir, the connection got rejuvenated. But our souls weren't fully bonded like it had been once.

Akhilan was the man chosen by nature as the most compatible partner to me. But Chandran used his divine powers to break our bonding even after he had marked me. My wolf and I are in love with him. I won't question the sincerity of my love for him. Because I know it was pure. The relationship that was destined to meet me at the age of four which gave me the hope to live whenever hard times strike me. He made my life so beautiful and gave me the hope for love. I misunderstood him and stayed away from him but he held onto his love and won me.

There is no question of choice. I can't choose between them. I love them both!

But... Was it too greedy to ask for both these ripened hunks of handsomeness?

A perverted vision flashed before me making me smile. I shook my head and sighed realizing Chandran would be cooking up a plan while I was leisurely thinking of the confusion in my heart. I should think and react in Akhilan's matter before something irrevocable happens. My heart won't bear his loss. He was near Chandran now. Maybe I should bring him back here. Would he really want me? Obviously, Yes! Otherwise, he wouldn't have come to Blood warriors. Why I behaved like a coward and ran back here? He would have understood why I haven't come to see him.

A hand on my shoulder put a break to my thoughts. I looked up at Aadhira in the dark room where my beloved was laying peacefully left me in agony. I gave her a small smile and stood up walking along with her.

We walked in silence until we came near the place where we usually meet in the evening to discuss the affairs of the realm and souls. I opened the door and saw the place looking so dark and dusty. I imagined the place being clean and snapped my finger turning it clean like before. I turned around and noticed Aadhira's eyes were glossy — she was thinking about her brother. That's why she left the place unattended as it was too painful to recall the demise of the loved one.

I walked in and saw the three seats. A pang of ache made my heart clench to recall the brave soul sacrificed his life to save me but I let his sacrifice go waste by killing myself. I wasn't thinking about anything at that moment but my focus had been only the unbearable pain in my heart created by the false proclaim about my love.

"I know this place gives you pain. And I made his sacrifice go waste without thinking properly. He won't want you to be sad. Kathir loved you very much and he would want his sister to be happy. I could feel his loss made a change in you. You shouldn't blame his death on yourself, Aadhira. You have been carrying the guilt for the past seven millennia. Your cold exterior was trying to cover the kind heart of yours. I am so grateful to you for taking responsibility for the realm for my words. And there is one more thing you should know."

She let go of her tears free, dissolving the guilt and releasing the pain with my words. I held her hand and used my mind link power with darkness to enlighten her about Maayan. She hates him thinking he had left me for another woman like Chandran narrated it to me in front of my wounded warriors. She should know the truth about why I had died and how Maayan was also trapped in a sick game.

She gasped with wide eyes and fell on knees crying her heart out. I hugged her and patted her head.

"You are a brave woman, Aadhira. You did what your heart told you for the best and you have been giving your best all these days and maintaining your top position and leading our people on the right path. With the increased sins and population, I could tell how hard it would be to do the purification and you have done everything without the divine powers. Everything will be going to be alright. I will decorate our purification pit with Chandran's head. That bastard will pay for every drop of blood shed by my people. I promise you, Aadhira.”

A tear of anger and determination rolled my cheek and evaporated midway with the way my skin burning for the revenge. She consoled after a few minutes and I teleported Aadhira to her room to let her rest for some time.

I looked at the empty seat of Kathir; my fingers were itching to get drenched in that dustball's blood. It will happen soon.

I spoke with Jasmine and went to the library to think about any useful solution for the antidote to bright ashes. I got an unsettled feeling in my heart. I massaged over my heart to get rid of the feel but suddenly my stomach ached a little while the nape of neck gave me a burning sensation. Could it be true?

Is there any chance for our mate bond to be still attached like Maayan had a string to my soul? What are you up to, Teddy?

This pain and burning sensation is a reflection of a mate being with another partner. I took in a deep breath and teleported to Akhilan's home. I am right outside his door and the voice of the female whom my wolf always desire to kill reached my ears.

"... calm down, Sugarcup. That whore doesn't deserve you. You are clearly telling her scent had changed. Because she was so busy sleeping with her lover from the past! She didn't even have time to visit you once and ran away when she sensed you coming. Here, have this... Don't worry... I will take care of you. I will make you forget all your pain..."

Her scratchy voice reached my ears and it got repulsively seductive at the end. My wolf pushed past my barriers and broke the door. I scrunched my nose at the smell of strong alcohol. I fisted my palm when I saw that bitch sitting next to Akhilan in a flimsy nightgown exposing the outline of her body clearly. She withdrew her hand from his bare chest and looked at me annoyed with her golden eyes. Akhilan snapped his head towards me at the noise of the door got broken but his eyes narrowed and turned away from me. Her hormones were making the place suffocated which made my wolf go crazy as this female was lusting after what's ours. I used my power to break the windows letting fresh air in. I turned toward that bitch.

"Pooja! I warn you to run away before my wolf plucks your heart out.”

I controlled my wolf and gave her a chance for the sake of divinity I have. But that bitch smirked and took a bottle from the table next to her.

"Moon God warned you would come. You are a traitor for going with that dark creature. I am going to erase the taint off our werewolf race by killing you."

She said with the same dirty smirk. So this was one of his plans to lure me out of my realm. She threw the content of the bottle towards my direction. I smelled it before it touched me.

Bright ash liquid!

I moved sideways and blocked that venom with my palm to make any contact with my face reflexively. It stung similarly as I could remember from my memory but to my surprise, my wolf healed me as she was so furious and wants the blood of this woman for pawing at her man. A smirk adorned my face and I looked at her with a sweet smile inching towards her.

"So sad! He lied to you because the man whom I am with wasn't the dark creature. I am!"

I let the darkness seep through my skin pores and flared it high. I got a satisfying response as her golden eyes turned back to normal while she shook with fear on seeing my true form. I took a few more steps but halted in my place when Akhilan came in between with a furious look and stood in fighting stance.

"Stop there. What's your problem? Leave me alone and go back to him!"

He shouted in a slurry voice and the scent of his voice was mixed with something along with alcohol. What was that bitch giving him? My wolf whimpered at his harsh words. I cringed and looked at his face which has no emotions but anger. He not only let another she-wolf to touch him but also defending her from me.

"Teddy! You are not in your right mind. Move away from my way!"

I spoke to him in a calm tone. He smirked with a careless look and pulled her wrist making her body crash on his.

"I was planning to have some nice time with Pooja. Why you have to spoil that? Wasn't our bond broken already? There is no connection between us anymore. Let me live my life! At last, now I am trying to get some happiness.”

He pressed her body to his. She purred and hugged him. I stood there still. I couldn't believe my ears and eyes. No! I shouldn't believe this! My Akhilan won't speak to me like this. Was that bastard making the history repeat? Yeah! It might be his plan. My wolf was broken at his hateful words and was howling and sobbing inside me.

"Our bond might be broken but..."

"Yeah! That's right! End of the discussion...! Get out of my home or stay here and see me getting pleasure from this willing female.”

He shakily walked to the bed lying down and pulled her to his chest. She smirked at me and turned her head and looked at Akhilan lovingly.

Patience like a Goddess, My foot!

Willing female, huh!

I let a thread of darkness enter that bitch's body. She shifted to her wolf as her body was trying to heal and push out the pain my darkness inflicting in her. Her nerves would feel like they were carrying volcanic lava instead of blood. Akhilan shot up and tried to go near her but her wolf growled at him in warning as her mind wasn't thing straight. Her wolf howled her sorry and begged me to stop the pain.

"If I ever see you near someone other than your mate, I will not hesitate to rip your head off your neck. Just because I am forgiving you over and over doesn't mean you can continue all your crazy deeds. Run away, now!"

I darkly warned her. Her wolf fell on the floor and coughed out some blood. I raised my hand withdrawing the dark thread back.

Her wolf jumped through the broken window and the paw thuds slowly become distant. The fuming fury in me was turned to the man looking at me with equal fire in his eyes. I took the time to look at him. I could understand he was so broken and very drunk covered in the mask of anger. His eyes were bloodshot and hair was dishevelled. I want to calm him down but he was in a defensive position and his eyes were telling a lot of things were processing in his mind right now.

"Why are you always spoiling my happiness? Don't I deserve some good time in my life? We are not mates anymore. Why are you still torturing me?"

He asked almost sadly in a loud hateful voice. His words added fuel to my fury. How could he speak that?

"Teddy... I thought we are together because of the love we have for each other... You even proposed to me before you get a chance to recognize me as your mate. Was that all lie? You have been asking me to leave you because the bond was broken by that bastard! How can I..."

"Stop this bullshit, Kavithanjali... Oh! Or should I call you as Layla or Goddess? If your words were true and if you had really loved me, where were you for the past few days? Was it so hard for the Goddess of darkness to pay a visit to a broken wounded wolf in the earth? Or your lover was taking your all-time not even letting you think of anything else? I don't give a fuck, with whom you are sleeping with... Just leave me alone! I got enough from you. All I want is some peace in my life now. Can't you give that me? You spoiled the night!"

He spoke clearly out of frustration and his beautiful grey eyes were displaying repulsion.

Maybe it wasn't all Chandran's trap... Destiny was testing me! It had put my beloved in death bed and made my soul mate repels me. I have failed my duty by killing myself once because of love. Now destiny is slapping me for that! I closed my eyes and blinked back my tears. It was precious and shouldn't be wasted over meaningless things. I should be strong. Love is not my cookie. I should keep myself strong for those who have trust in me. Like the sixteen-year-old Kavithanjali, I should have my focus on revenge and stay away from Love. I sighed out with the new determination and smiled at him — a smile that a Goddess would give to the man she newly met.

"If that is what you want, I will never interfere with your life again, Akhilan. All the best for your peaceful future. Take care of your wolf! The divine power in me tells he was trying to get out of your barrier... And you have no idea what I am going through. Don't blame yourself when one day you learn the truth. Life gave me a chance to be in love... I ran away from that but you held onto me and made me believe in love. You gave me hope that love is a beautiful feeling to carry and I really believed that. But the same you taught me that was all just a “made-up lie’ and the ugly truth is Love would only bring ultimate pain. And as a Goddess, I shouldn't be distracted. Thank you for enlightening me, Akhilan.”

I snapped my finger but instead of teleporting I turned invisible. He looked at me with wide eyes at the delivery of my emotionless words and fell on his knees crying loud when I was invisible. A ray of hope on love sprouted in my heart to see him crying for me. But I got enough pain from this fucking love. I don't want anyone near me anymore.

I should find a way to save Maayan but I should keep my heart to myself. No one knows what would happen in future. I am not letting my people down once again. The duties from the realm of darkness are waiting for me. I teleported back to my room. Maayan was in the bed in the same position I saw last time. I sensed Jasmine groaning in the next room trying to find a way to bring him back to consciousness

I walked towards the window covered in curtain and sat on the place I use to meditate. I want to connect with the celestial once again. It's been a while but my mind was now crystal clear. I sat down in lotus posture and closed my eyes. Within a few seconds, my soul was connected to the celestial. Unlike last time, I feel so warm and safe there. The peace in the place made me calm down and the soul of my wolf was there in sleeping position. She needs some healing too. This place would heal her broken heart. My wolf managed to heal the bright ashes as she was also immune to silver which was so lethal to wolves. It might not be possible if she wasn't so furious and worked up with the dirty behaviour of Pooja.

Light has the power to eliminate the darkness. But a candle would only illuminate a room but not the dark sky! I should find a way to increase my dark powers. Then the bright ash wouldn't hurt any of the people under the influence of darkness. But Maayan was dying. I don't know whether I have enough time to build my strength before some bad thing happens to him. I don't want another soul to make a sacrifice for me. My mind could think more properly here! Suddenly the words of Aadhavan rang through my ears:

"...there is nothing in our hand now. The bright ash is a thing came here from outside the solar system. We can't find the antidote to it here..."

So if I get out of the solar system from where this meteorite comes from, I could find a way to save his life. If this was the ashes of a Sun, there is a possibility for a divine of darkness there. That darkness can help me.

That's it!

I should have known that I could find my answer through meditation rather than searching in the earth and my library. I wasted a week! I should go immediately. I thanked the celestial for giving me a solution and opened my eyes happily in the determination to save the man who loved me like no one in this universe. I felt like I gained more powers with the happiness my heart was in. But that didn't last long as panic engulfed my heart.

I blinked and rubbed my eyes staring at the empty bed...

I gulped and stood up walking to the bed slowly with the racing heart and traced my hand where he had been lying a few moments ago. The bed was still warm...

Did he wake up?

or...

[To be continued...]