SWNOVELS Chapter 164 Cry And Laugh
But how could William not worry, he saw her sitting on the couch in the study room, staring outside the window. This was already night time.
Sherry's face was quite pale, her lips showed a little smile which looked sad.
She would never forget that she left her and her brother, she would never forget that she allowed Payne to hold a gun at her head for Ashley, she really was the best step mother in the world, but she couldn't understand why she would do that to herself.
William went inside, but he didn't come closer to her, instead, he just looked at her from afar. She was still frowning, her worries were written on her forehead.
The night swallowed her sadness, her pretty face showed no tears, but she still looked so pitiful, it was a picture that would make any man want to protect her.
William knew what she was feeling in that moment, Sierra was her mother, that was so shocking that he could barely believe it, he couldn't believe that Sierra would allow Payne to treat her like this!
The Jones family was so wealthy, they had the money to help Sherry's brother for his treatment, but Sierra would rather ask her to be a surrogate, he could still remember that she was only 17 years old when it happened, how could she handle all that at such a young age?
William felt horrible guilt when he thought about that night when he mocked her, he thought about the night her brother died, and taking away the baby when it was only born, he felt so much guilt inside...
What had he done?
Sherry went through so much, how could she bare with all that?
What had he done!
Sherry suddenly rolled herself in, her head lowered, the hair fell into her face so that people couldn't see her expression.
William's heart tightened, she looked so small and fragile, the way she rolled herself up.
She didn't cry, and she didn't make any other sounds, it was scary how quiet she was.
After a long time she suddenly sighed, then she looked up again, outside the window into the night sky, it was a very cold winter!
When he saw the sadness in her eyes, he didn't even think about it before he went over to her, then he kneed down beside her and took her into his arms, and said pitiful, "If you want to cry, let it out." Sherry looked up in panic, her eyes were widened, and she looked confused, her voice was weak as she asked, "William, do you believe that she is my mother?"
William's expression showed pain, "Sherry, don't think about it anymore, you have me, you have Samuel and Daniel!"
Sherry's lost gaze was mixed with pain, but only a second later, she smiled again, looked at William and said, "Some things are in the past, but some things will never be forgotten, this time, I really give up! Tell me, can I just pretend like she's dead?"
"Sherry..." William mumbled, he hugged her tight, but didn't know what he should say! But he saw how sad she was, so hurt, and he couldn't bare, "Maybe she has her own problems, there is no mother that doesn't love her own child!"
"Maybe she never loved me and my brother! William, she never loved us! She is colder than a stranger! When Luke was sick, I begged her, but she only gathered a little money, it wasn't even a tenth of what she spends on her make-up and cosmetics, at that time I thought that she maybe had her stories she couldn't tell me, I never hated or blamed her, but now..."
He saw it, he saw her heartlessness, he saw how cruel she was, that kind of women that didn't even want her own daughter, but who took care of someone else daughter, what was going on in her head? "Sherry, stop thinking about it, you got me!"
"Yes, I have you, thank God I still have you." She felt her eyes sting, she was very hurt, so she closed her eyes because she didn't want to cry.
"William, the most humble and fragile thing in the world are human feelings, but she never cared about me, I even dreamed that maybe she just has her own secret sorrows. But today cleared my eyes, I saw how much she cared about Ashley, and it made my heart ache, maybe I am jealous of Ashley! She can easily receive her love! But me and Luke never got any of that!"
"Sherry!" William could only hold her tight, he could only give her strength with that.
"It's okay, I just want to talk. Please don't be annoyed of me talking so much, I never talked to anyone about this!" Sherry buried her face in his chest, "William, will you ever leave me?"
"Never! I will never!" He answered determined, "I will never leave you, even if don't want to be with me anymore, I will follow you anywhere!"
Right in that moment, William's phone rang, he kept holding her in his arms and picked up the call, "Hello?"
"William, is my daughter okay?" Cohen yell was heard from the other side of the line, "I heard that Sierra wants to hurt my daughter?"
William heard the loud voice of his father in-law, and said helplessly, "Dad, Sherry is fine, you should let Ashley go, this is not right! Susan already declined Leon, there is no going back anymore! And me and Sherry both hope that you can follow your own feelings and be with Susan!"
"She is really okay?" Cohen asked after pausing for a while.
"She is fine, she is with me, I will protect her with my life."
"Good, as long as she is alright."
Sherry only then knew that it was Cohen and she felt her heart twitch, even though she had no mother who cared about her, but he had a birth father, and that made her feel warmth again. She didn't want to think about it again, she will just pretend to have no mother, if she never had one, she didn't have to be sad about it, but she still couldn't help to feel pain.
William exchanged a few more words before he hung up the phone, he looked down to Sherry as she was smiling.
She smiled, it was such a heartfelt smile, she looked up and it filled her whole face, "I am fine, because I have you, and I have my father caring about me, so, I am very happy!" He knew that she would bury everything in her heart, her laughter was so bright as if nothing ever happened. "Sherry..." William stuttered.
He really loved this dummy woman, didn't she know what it meant that cleverness may overreach itself? The more she pretended not to care, the more she was hurting in her heart. When he thought about Sierra saying that Sherry was a lucky charm, William could feel that Sherry's heart broke into small pieces, her smile looked so simple, but there was so much pain hidden behind it, she smiled out of pain, cavity and despair.
"I am alright, you can let go of me now!" She was calm again, all these years she had been through so much, some little things don't even knock her off the feet anymore.
William's gaze was resting on her face, his eyes showed the pain that he felt in his heart, he looked at her smile angrily, "I don't like you hiding your feelings from me, I want to see the real you, don't force yourself to smile, I feel pity for you!"
He knew that she was forcing herself, maybe it was for him not to worry, but the way her mother treated her, she couldn't be so calm about it, she couldn't stop herself from feeling sad. Just thinking about how Sierra treated Sherry, William had to clench his fist, fuck, what had Sherry been through.
His gaze was so sharp, he could see right through her.
"William, I really feel broken, I want to cry and I want to laugh, I don't know what I should do!" The tears she had been holding back were running down the cheeks now, Sherry held William tight to herself and started to cry, "You have to be my closest person forever, my family, you can never hurt me, okay?"
"Dummy, if I don't spoil you, who else would I spoil?" He sighed, then he held her even closer, maybe she would feel better after letting it out.
"But I can't pretend as if she is dead, what should I do?" Sherry tried to hold back her pain, she held William close, trying to get strength through him.
"Just go with the flow! We should not think about her again, let us be happy!"
"Yes, Dad said that too, I have two fathers, maybe because Mom never loved us, so that is why I have fathers who love me so much, and now I have Cohen as well, I am happy about that! And I have you, and the kids!"
He carried her to the bed, "Now that you have cried, go to sleep, everything will be fine!"
He pulled the blanket over to cover them both.
Then he turned off the light, his arms around her, he patted her on the back, but never thought about anything off, he just wanted to hold her, comfort her, warm her and strengthen her.
But, he felt her tears, they were hot as they landed on his shirt, he felt a twitch. Cry, let it all out, then everything will be okay!
After a long time, she finally stopped.
He just held her close, and patted her on the back, her tears had soaked a big part on his shirt, she said with a stuffy voice, "I am sorry I made your shirt wet!"
"That is okay, this will forever be your place, you can do whatever you want!"
"Is it cold?" She said and helped him to unbutton his shirt, "Don't wear this anymore!"
She didn't have much thought behind that, but William suddenly grabbed her hand, "Sherry, don't."
"But you can't wear a wet shirt, I made it dirty, you will feel uncomfortable!" She unbuttoned another one, and her hands accidentally touched his hot skin, William immediately inhaled deeply.
Sherry still didn't notice anything, and helped him get off his shirt, then she put down the shirt next to their bed, and then she went back and buried her face in his chest, "I will not cry again, my eyes really hurt, it's so uncomfortable..."
Her body was carrying a light scent, and the way she pressed her face on his skin, he almost couldn't control himself anymore, then he said with a hoarse voice, "Wifey, you are in trouble." "What?" She asked surprised.
"I am sad, very sad!" His expression was complicated, "I want you!"
His words made her blush, and she backed off from him immediately, to gain some distance between them, but he grabbed her hand and held it, making her feel his lust.
"Oh!" She was very bashful.
He took a deep breath and let go of her hand, "It's okay, I can bear with it!"
She was very touched, she thought that he was behaving really well all these days, he would hold her to sleep every night and endure the torture and every time he held himself back.
She was touched by the way he controlled himself, and surprised about his momentum today, she suddenly remembered his brilliance the moment he saved her, if she wasn't too hurt at that time, she might have called out in joy!
She reached out her hand and touched his face, those sharp lines, the deep dark eyes, it made her heart tremble, "William, when did you fall in love with me?"
He paused, and thought for a while, "When I knew that Daniel wasn't your child! It was so shocking for me, and I thought you must be such a kind hearted person. And the more I got to know you, the more I found how kind you were, and I know I was right!"