A Girl Nobody Wanted

I was balming my self for acting so stupid and childish. I should have trusted him way more than this.

“sarah... with his voice, I came back to presence.

He was looking at my face with a worried look on his eyes.

“I know you are pissed off at me, and you can't still forgive me, I totally get it. I should have told you everything before yo get to know them in a hurtful way like that,” he said sadly.

ves, you should have told me, Jake, much earlier... am pissed off, that is also true. But I am pissed off at myself more thar with you.

“ wanted to tell you everything after I decided to go with this fake proposal thing. I even called you to tell you everything Can you remember one day I called you at midnight?” he asked.

Ves, I remember that. He called me when I was sleeping. I was anyway expecting him to call me just to hear his voice. I wa missing him so much. So when he called, I was so happy. He even said to me that he has to tell me something, but then said he will tell me after he meets me. At that time, I didn't think about it much because for me hearing his voice was enough.

“I didn’t know how to start explaining you everything, Sarah..” he began speaking since I was silent.

“since you didn't know anything about my family, I had to tell you about them before telling you about that proposal thir I didn’t know how to start or where to start. I was afraid of how you will react when 1 tell you. I was far away from you, so. couldn't even comfort you if you get upset. So I thought I should tell you everything when I meet you in person. I thought should reveal all the truth to you when I can hold your hand and cuddle you to my chest...” he said.

“Didn't you think if I got to know about this somehow, how I would feel?" I asked.

“I don't want to lie, Sarah... That never even came to my mind. I never thought you will find out about anything before I te you.” he said worriedly.

I chuckled.

“Because I am a poor girl from a low-class family, you thought I have no way of finding what is going on in the most powerful family in the country. ” I said.

“Don't say like that, princess.” he said sadly.

“I know you didn't mean it in the exact words, Jake. But both of us know, that's what you basically felt” I said.

He released a long sigh...

“It was the most stupid decision I have ever taken in my life, Sarah...I was planning to come here in the morning after the party. So I thought I should ask you to meet me and tell you everything that day itself”

“Then why didn't you come, Jake? You took two days to come here. Even if you walk from there, you could have reached much earlier” I said.

“After you left the hotel with Andrew, I was feeling like I was going crazy. I couldn't even process what has happened. I trig to reach you a lot, but you didn’t answer. However, in the meantime, dad asked me to take him inside. When I took him to the hotel room, he got collapsed! I was so panicked. He was not fully recovered when he comes to the party. Doctors ever asked me to cancel the party. But he insisted he should have the party. We had to take him to the hospital as soon as we could.

God My eyes widened with surprise...

“Doctors took my dad to the ICU. My mom was so shocked. She was also not in a position to handle things alone. So I had no way of leaving them. Even at the hospital, I tried to reach you a lot. I didn’t know what I should do, Sarah... I was total out of my mind. Doctors said they need to keep dad unconscious for some time to give him complete rest. Mom was cryin and she was not even drinking anything. I knew you were so heartbroken and miserable. I didn’t even know where are yo or if you are safe. Can you imagine my status of mind at that time, Sarah... I talked with doctors and other people. I tried I best to comfort my mom. But deep inside me, I was bleeding...”

“When you don't answer my calls even the next day, I called Andrew. But he refused to tell me anything about you... begged him, Sarah... I begged him with all I have, asking him to tell me at least you are safe. But he just laughed at me... One time, I thought you are leaving me forever... Then I got frightened, thinking what if something has happened to you. What if Andrew did something to you... still don't know how I didn't go totally mad. I called Luke and told him everything He was at home, resting, I didn't want to bother him at all... But I didn’t know what else to do, Sarah”

“Luke volunteered to come here and take care of you until I can leave my parents. I knew I shouldn't let him, but it was such a relief... He called me and informed that you are safe and at home... That was like the most comforting news I ever got in my life. But he also said to me that you refused to listen to anything he said. So right after my dad got conscious ar he was transferred from the ICU, I left.” he said.

“What? So your dad still in the hospital? What about your mom? God! You shouldn't have left them like that.” I yelled. “He is still in the hospital, but he is getting better. Mom also seemed fine because of that. So I told them I have an urgent matter to attend and here I am... But I have to go back soon... I can’t leave them alone for a long time..." he said.

“God! Why Luke didn't tell me your dad is in ICU? If I knew I will never let you come here like this, Jake... feel horrible for making you visit me in a situation like this." I said.

“I asked Luke not to tell anything... I didn't want to provide you more excuses... Don't feel bad about yourself, Sarah... If there is someone to be felt horrible, that should be me... Actually, I have no words to explain how much I feel bad about self, especially because of that kiss...” he said, looking down.

Kiss... I totally forgot about it. I closed my eyes tightly because I felt like I was again observing how their lips connected together... How he held her in his arms and how their faces were glowing...

“I could listen to the proposal... I could observe how you two danced together... I could endure how perfectly you two match... But when you kiss her... That was my breakpoint..”I said.

He raised his head and looked at me with tear-filled eyes...

“I know my beautiful princess... I know how you felt... But if you can please, believe me, kissing another girl hurt my heart than it has ever got hurt... I am willing to kiss the ground you are standing on, rather than kissing someone else.” he saic “Then why you did that, Jake.”

“It was a suggestion from the current president. He said if we kiss that would make the whole thing much more realistic. Both I and Marina strongly objected to that. We said we can’t have any physical contact. But he said if we want everyone 1 believe us, we need something drastic like that. Finally, we agreed. Even when I was kissing her, from my whole heart, I we thinking about you... *

“Don't tell me you didn't enjoy it. She is divinely beautiful, and you are also a guy after all..You two were glowing with happiness. I didn't see any regret on your face, Jake...” jealousy overtook my sense of intelligence.

He stared at my face a few seconds...

“she may be beautiful, Sarah... But I don't give a s**t about that. For me, you are the most beautiful girl... I have seen mar beautiful girls in my life, Sarah... Some of them were literally throwing themselves at me. But I have never felt any special towards any girl other than you... Indeed I am also having needs like any other guy... I don't want to just kiss lips, I want s much more... I want to kiss every inch of her body, making her moan my name... I want to touch her in a way that she will crave for my touch in every second of her life... But I don't want them from any other girl, Sarah... I want all those things from you... Only from you... If you don’t want to give them to me, I prefer to stay away from all the girls rather than even trying to touch any other girl..” he said, looking right into my eyes. His voice was so firm, and he clearly meant every wor he said.

His words along with his piercing look made me shiver...

Without even knowing, I was replaying that night at this same house with him...

“sarah... with his voice, I panicked looked at him.

“I have told you everything now... There are no more secrets... Please tell me, if there is a chance you will consider forgivi me for everything I did." he asked in a pleading voice.

What can I say? I know he should not hide anything from me, but that doesn't mean he doesn't love me... He loves me... Even more, than I can imagine...

If you can't forgive a person you love, then what is the purpose of your love...

“Jake... You know how miserable my life was... There was not even a single day I didn't cry. But after you entered my life, everything got changed... You brought love and happiness to my life... Because of you, everything around me changed for my good... I was afraid that I will lose you, that's what made me even angrier... have no life without you, Jake... You are m everything... I can forgive you, and I am forgiving you... I said, looking at his eyes.

“Princess...” in an eye blink he was on his knees in front of me.

Without even knowing, that made me stood up from where I was sitting.

His eyes were again filled with tears... But his face was glowing...

“I have to make a request, princess..” he said, looking at me and treating me with his signature smile...