A Girl Nobody Wanted

Mr. Patterson took me home the next day morning. There was no one when I come home. For a moment, I was happy that my family doesn't worry about me, otherwise, I would have to give them an explanation for not coming home yesterday. I directly went to my room and dropped my self to the bed. I was feeling a bit dizzy because of the medicine. So I close m eyes, trying to get some sleep. After all, I can forget everything at least when I am sleeping. I don't know how long I have been sleeping, I woke up with someone knocking on my door. I didn't feel strong enough to even get up from the bed. Then only I remembered that I didn't eat anything after I come home. Mr. Patterson tried his best to take me somewhere to eat, but I kindly refused. Who can care about food when you are feeling dead inside? Whoever the person at my door knocked again. “sarah...” Shane's voice raised from the outside. He even tried to open the door, but I had it locked from inside. “Wait... I am coming..” I said. Then I managed to go and opened the door. I had to walk holding to the wall and the furnitu to not fell down. “sarah...” Shane started to saying something as soon as I opened the door, but he paused after seeing my face, he stared me for a few seconds like he saw a ghost. Then he continued speaking. “You have a visitor...” he said. “Visitor!” my heart began to beat faster. Is it Jake? Maybe he came to apologize. But my expectation just died as I saw the person came behind Shane... I didn’t expect to see him at this time at all... “Lukel” I screamed involuntarily. Luke smiled worriedly. “Aren't you supposed to stay in bed rest?” I asked. “He said he has something very urgent to discuss with you...” Shane said. His voice clearly said how confused he has got with Luke's sudden appearance. Luke smiled weakly at him. “I will stay downstairs...” Sahne said, looking at both of us suspiciously. Then he went down the stairs. Luke entered my room without even asking my permission. Then he sat on my bed. I closed the door, and leaned to the wall, staring at him. “Your phone is not working” he complained. My eyes moved to the small pouch I carried to the celebration. My phone must be still in it. I think it was switched off automatically due to a low battery. I didn't remember about it until Luke asked about it. I used to keep my phone switch all the time because I didn't want Jake to worry about me. He should be able to reach me anytime he wants. But now, I don't think he genuinely worries about me anymore. I released a sigh... “Jake and I both tried to reach you a lot. we both were worried so much,” he said again since I was silent. Worried... I chuckled. “Don't laugh like that, Sarah..." he said painfully. “Jake called Andrew as well, but he refused to tell us anything about you. jake wanted to come here looking for you.” “Then why didn't he come? Couldn't he leave her loving future wife?" I asked sarcastically. “sarah... Please, don't talk like this. You know exactly what kind of a guy Jake really is?" “Do I really know about him, Luke? I highly doubt I know anything about him." “sarah... 1am not saying Jake is a hundred percent right. He should have told you about all these much earlier. But that doesn't mean his love for you is not real..” Luke said. “Luke, I don't even want to talk about him anymore. He had the chance to tell me everything before things get this seriou But he didn't even care to give me an explanation even after I saw everything. Even now, he sent you, looking for me. If hi love is real, I don't think he wil treat me like this." 1 said angrily. “He didn't send me, Sarah... I volunteered to come because he is not in a position to come right now.” “Wow! Luke... Even now, after everything, you are still trying to protect him. I really wish I have someone like you to love me." “I am not trying to protect him, Sarah... 1am here to help you to get rid of this misunderstanding. I just want to tell you everything. * “Really... After I witnessed everything from my own eyes, you think I have misunderstood things. So that's my fault now? How can I trust whatever the thing you are going to tell me when you act like a devoted, loyal slave to Jacob McMiller, Luke?” “I know, Sarah... You are angry with me too. I indeed hid everything about Jake from you, but I have never lied to you...” he said in a painful voice. “You both have told me nothing but lies, Luke!” letting my anger out, I screamed at him. “Can you tell me when did I lie to you?” he asked, staring to my eyes. “You lied to me the moment you told me it is Shane you love when you are truly in love with Jake! ” I didn't expect to tell him about it in this way. But certain scenarios make us helpless to do things we didn't plan at all... Luke's face turned pale like he saw a ghost! He stared at me for some time without saying anything. Luke has done nothing but helps me all this time. How the hell I became this cruel to hurt him like this when I exactly kn he lied to me because he didn’t want to hurt me. I couldn't stand his gaze anymore... I looked down. “I am so sorry for lying to you, Sarah... I always want you two to be happy. I didn’t want to ruin it by telling you about my feelings, that's why I lied. Otherwise, I had no intention of lying to you he said in a broken voice. Please forgive me, Luke... I didn't want to hurt you like this. I don’t even know what am I thinking and what am I doing anymore. I thought, but I didn't convert them to words. “Jake and I grew up together, Sarah... Jake's dad is very strict about the friends he has. So Jake literally had no long term friends other than me. It may be the reason why we became so close to each other. I have never been close to any guy or girl than I have been close to Jake. So I think it is natural for me to fell in love with him. My love for him grows up each an every day, Sarah... There is no limit to it. * “When I first got to know about his feelings towards you, it made me wanted to kill myself. I couldn't even think of sharin; him with someone else. You know how I made up my mind and decided that I should help you two with my life?” he aske I didn't say anything. I don't really know the answer to it as well. If I were in his position, will I be able to make up my min like that? “Jake is not a very emotional guy, Sarah... Other than his parents and me, I have never seen him paying any special consideration to anyone. But how he changed after he got feelings for you actually surprised me. He just wanted to be at every place where he could predict that you may go. Even at a football match, among thousands of spectators, he could s where you were, and your mere presence made him confident about himself. Though he didn't even talk to you face to fa he spent hours talking to your photos on his phone. So day by day, I realized how much he loves you... I understood that can't think of anyone in that special way other than about you. So I decided to make up my mind and support him.” he said. His words made my eyes wet. No matter what I felt in a haste, deep down my heart I believe that Jake still loves me. “Come sit here..." I was sobbing, closing my face from both of my palms when Luke called me. He walked to me and put his hand around my waist as I didn't move. He walked me to the bed and made me sit. Then he sat beside me and took my hand in his. “He knew that one day, you would have to face this type of an unpleasant situation, and it will hurt you so much... That is one of the major reasons he didn’t want to let you know about his feelings earlier” Luke said, caressing my hand. “Also another disaster happened during those days. Most of the people didn't know anything about Jake's dad's family Lif He always kept it a secret because he knew he got so many enemies. He wanted to protect his family. However, Jake's mo! faced that tragic accident when we were in high school. It was kind of a turning point in their lives. Jake's dad wanted the to be extra careful because he suspected that the accident is one of his enemy's work. His intelligence team warns that there can be a risk to Jake's life as well. Jake's dad sent him to a high school here because he wanted to keep Jake away from all this political drama. However, after that incident, Jake couldn't even visit his home whenever he needs. Sometim he didn't go home for months. Jake was so afraid that people around him would get into trouble because of him. So he even asked me to stay away from him as much as possible. Little by little, he started to spend a lonely life than ever. In tf type of situation, he didn’t want to start an affair with you put your life into danger..” Luke kept on saying. God! That is really pitiful. I don't know how Jake managed to stay like that. Stay away from his family, friends, and everyone... It must be very hard and frustrating for him. “He suffered a lot... Seeing you and not being able to express his feelings. I tried to tell you about him a few times. But he stopped me saying he just wants to see you live happily, and he didn't want to make you his, and put your life into dange “However, as written on our fate, you came to the same university as us. On the very first day, we saw you at the faculty, jake got really upset because he knew that seeing you every day for four years will be torture he can't undergo... He even tried to change the university. But his dad insisted he should be here. When we were in high school, we didn't know that you were getting bullied and treated that badly by everyone. Jake was furious, seeing you were treated like that. He askec me to be a member of Shane's gang, and try my best to protect you. He found all the information about you. After knowir how miserable and frustrating your life is he decided that he should tell you about his feelings. * “I still remember the day he told me about his decision. I know that I am putting her life also in danger, but I will protect her with my life. 1 can't let her suffer alone like this. At least now she will have me to share everything. Those are the exac words he said to me.” My heart melted down with unbearable love for my Jake... Oh! Jake My sweet Jake...I remembered the very first note he kept for me along with a hot chocolate. “Drink and Smile” that's what the note said. 1 also got the first message from him on that day. How much my life changed since then. I was an ugly, useless bi**h everyone hates. But with his love, I am not getting bullied anymore. I have started making friends... Even my brother started treats me much better than earlier. I am started to getting the attention of people... He changed my life from a miserable hell to joyful heaven... How much he cared for me during this time... How much he loved me... How could I act that silly at that party? Didn't he always ask me to trust him and his love... Didn't I promise him to trust him no matter what? So how could I break that promise so quickly... Then the way he kissed that girl started to flashback on my mind... How he holds her... How their lips met each other... Ho their eyes were closed, embracing the sensation... There can be a fair reason for everything. But why did he kiss her like that... What is the rationale behind that... I felt like I was in hotplate... What should I do...