A Girl Nobody Wanted

I was already in a complete mess, where I couldn't find a way out. What Mr. Patterson just told me, knocked me down completely. Did he tell me the truth?

I came out of his office, with a burning head. I didn’t know what should I do anymore.

Anyway, I cannot go to the lecture now. So I went home. I called Sally on my way to let her know. She sensed something is wrong from the way I talked. she asked me if she should come and give me a ride home. But I refused. I wanted to be alor for some time more than anything else. There is a lot to process...

There was no one at home. That was a relief. I directly went to my room and collapsed down to my bed.

I suspected that the person Luke love is Jake, didn’t 1? But Luke convinced me to believe that it is Shane. Why the hell I believed him? I was such a fool... I should have known that there is no way Luke loves a person like Shane. I knew exactly how much Luke hate Shane for treating me like s**t. On the other hand, from the way he talks about Jake, I could have understood it. How many times, he has said that he is willing to sacrifice his life for Jake?

I don't know how I missed all these details... After all, I have acted super dumb during the recent past. I even sympathize for that jerk, Patterson... I really hate myself... I thought I am at least smart, though I am not beautiful... But it seems like I am the dumbest girl on the Earth!

However, as Patterson said, did I really come between those two? If I didn't come to Jake's life, will he actually fell in love with Luke?

Maybe that is true... Jake loves him so much... I clearly saw how he react when Luke got injured. He didn't even think abot himself, he just wanted to get revenge for what they did to Luke.

They know each other for all their lives. Though I am not aware of many things in Jake's life, Luke knows every single littl thing about him. Luke can understand Jake way more than I do...

Luke must be really hating me. 1 actually destroyed all the hopes he had for Jake...

Holding my head from both hands, I broke into tears...

I am trouble for everyone in this world. Even my parents and my brother would have a better life if they didn’t have me ir their lives. Jake and Luke will also have a better life with each other if I was not there. Why the hell I was born to this world? I can never have happiness or any comfort in my life. Not just that, it seems like the people around me also suffer because of me.

Maybe I should leave... To somewhere, no one can ever find me...

I don't know how long I was crying while thinking all these...

I heard my phone rang... It was from Jake...

First I thought not to answer because he can easily recognize that I was crying. I didn’t want him to be worried. But on the other hand, I wanted to know how Luke is... So I answered.

“Hello.” I said, trying my best to hide I was crying.

“Were you crying?” his concerned voice raised. I can't hide anything from him.

“I... 1." 1 didn’t know what to say.

“Look, princess... I know this is really hard for you to bear... I wish I could be with you and comfort you, holding you to my chest... But I am so helpless, princess... Right now, Luke's parents also need me here. Please forgive me.” he said sadly. “No... Jake... Please don't apologize... There is nothing for you to apologize... You should be there... I am crying because a so stupid... You can do nothing about that.” I said quickly.

“Shh... Never say my princess is stupid... You are not stupid, you are the smartest girl I know... You are just too innocent... But I love you for that... You don't even know how to treat people badly, no matter what they do to you. You know nothing about being cunning... You are willing to do anything for people you love. You are not like any other girl. You are so selfless... But these qualities don’t make you stupid, babe... They make you unique... They make you so adorable... I am really proud that you are mine.” he said. There is no doubt he meant every single word.

However, his words made me cry harder... I wish he was with me right now...

“Please don't cry, princess... You know what happens to me when you are crying... Please I beg you...” he said.

I was silent for about a minute, trying to stop crying. How can I cry and make him even more worried?

“How is Luke?" I asked after the silence.

“He is still unconscious, Sarah... But doctors said he will get conscious soon...” he said.

“How are his parents. Mrs.Bernards must be really worried...“

“She even fainted... But now she is a bit okay...

“Oh! God”

“shane is so worried too. He didn't even eat anything. I didn't even think he cares about anyone this much..” Jake said. “It seems like this incident changed him a lot," I replied.

“Hmm... I don't know how Luke will behave after he gains consciousness... Doctors said we should keep him as calm as possible. He should be on bed rest, he won't be even able to go to the washroom... But just imagine how hard it would be to keep him like that since now he knows everything. *

“If we can revoke your punishment that would be the only solution...” I said. Honestly, it just came out without me even knowing.

“There is no way that can happen, Sarah... As far as I know, some of our lectures have tried their best to convince the committee to at least reduce the punishment. But it was useless..." Jake said.

“Let's see, Jake... Please don't lose hope... I wish I could be with you all, but it will create unwanted problems. I said. “That's true... Don't worry, babe... You stay safe... Go to lectures every day... Cleark is there at my house. Call him wheneve you need. I asked him to stay there because you are alone.” Jake said.

How much he worries about me? Though he has to leave in a hurry he still thought about my protection.

“Jake, can I ask you something?” I asked.

“Yes... What it is?”

“If you didn’t meet me in the first place what would you do?"

He was silent for a few seconds...

“I don't even know, princess... I didn’t know anything about loving someone other than my family and Luke before I met you. I started to learn everything because of you. It was not a month or two... I have been obsessed with you for more tha 5 years now... If you were not in my life, I don't know what I will do or where I will be... Maybe I become a priest...” he saic smiling.

“What a priest? Have you ever thought about becoming a priest?” I asked with surprise.

“Not really... But I thought I would never marry anyone... Everything changed after I met you...” he replied.

“Why you asked something like that?” he asked again.

“Just asked... Okay, Jake then takes care of yourself and take care of Luke.." said.

“Okay, princess... Take care of yourself too... I will call you later.”

After Jake cut the call, I again started thinking.

So Jake didn’t even want to get married before he met me... Maybe he could have stayed single, or there was a possibility him fell in love with Luke in a more romantic way... He clearly said he didn't love anyone other than his family and Luke before he meets me...

After all, I actually feel like I really came between those two...

Still, Luke loves me so much... I am so stupid to even think that Luke would hate me... He has done so much for me, and f will in the future as well...

Maybe this time, it is my chance to help him... For everything, he has done for me and went through because of me... There cannot be a big issue of going to a function with that jerk, right? It is just a function... But it can save many people from getting into trouble...

But I should not let Patterson make me a fool as well... I need to talk with him and get everything sorted out.

I dialed his number.

With the first ring, he answered like he was waiting for me to call him...

“I knew you would call me soon..” his voice raised.

“How I know you would fulfill your part of the agreement? I don't think you have that much power to revoke their punishment.” I asked.

“You are underestimating me a lot, Sarah... But I forgive you for that... If you are not so sure, you can just wait and see wh will happen. I will perform my part of the agreement before the function. But you have to keep your word and do your part” he said.

“Can you do that immediately... I am so much worried about Luke... At least can you inform the guys that you all are going to reconsider the punishment for now...” I asked.

“I can do that... Everything will be done with two-three days. So you are willing to take my offer?” he asked.

“Yes, I am..." I said confidently. I know my decision can lead me to some very complicated situation as well. Jake would kil me if he knew this. But I don't see any other solution right now. Won't Jake or Luke do the same thing if they have to face situation like mine? They don't hesitate to do things for me. This is my chance to help them.

“How can I be sure you will keep onto your word? What is the guarantee I have?” he then asked.

“You have my word, Mr. Patterson... I promise you. I never break my promises... *

“I know you are a good girl... But if I asked you to believe me like that, would you believe me?” he asked.

I didn't say anything. I won't believe him, there is no doubt...

“I know most certainly, that you won't trust me... But I trust you, Sarah... You know why? ” he asked.

I didn’t say anything.

“Because you mean to me more than you can ever imagine... You may hate me but remember I will never hate you... So don't break my trust, please... If you ever break my trust, even I don't know what I would do. I will destroy everyone... I wi kill you and then kill myself."

He is not joking. This is more serious than I ever thought. What have you got yourself signed up for, Sarah?