A Girl Nobody Wanted

“Is that Shane, then?” I asked after a long pause... Even I couldn't believe I had the strength to tell his name...

My heart was about to jump out of my chest... I was so damn nervous...

He stared at me as he saw me for the first time...

Then his eyes moved from me to the wall...

“Yes.." he said after a few seconds.

What! YESI! He loves Shane... How can it be possible? He hates him... He has told me on several occasions how much he hates him... This is a total astonishment...

“I told you. You won't like the truth..” he released a sigh...

“Not Don't think like that, Luke... I just can’t believe it. I thought you don't like him..” I managed to say.

“sometimes you have to pretend to do things just to hide your true feelings.” he said.

“50, you really love Shane...” I asked. I just wanted to hear him saying it because it was so damn hard to believe...

“Yes...1 love Shane... But you know how he is. He is straight more than anyone I know. So, how can I ever have a chance w him?” he seemed so down.

What should I say to him? I felt completely lost... I remembered the day, Shane told me about his feelings towards Luke... Both of them love each other... Both of them think the other one is completely straight, and they won't have a chance...

If what Luke told me is true, then he loves Shane so much... Shane also loves Luke so much... They just have to reveal the feelings to each other... But both of them are afraid to do it... This is a total mess...

I think 1 am the first and the only person who knows about both of them and their emotions... So, I have to reveal the tru isn't it?

If they get to know the truth, all the problems will be solved. None of them have to suffer...

But Shane asked me to stay out of this... So, is it okay if I tell the truth to Luke?

On the other hand, Luke is a very good guy... Shane is completely opposite. He knows nothing other than making people suffer. He is selfish as much as Luke is selfless... Will Luke be able to lead a happy life with Shane no matter how much th love each other?

Love can change people... May be Luke's love can change Shane, and they will be able to lead a happy life... But what is tr guarantee we have...

“What are you thinking? Do you think I am so stupid to love him?” Luke asked because I was just thinking without saying anything...

“No... I don't think it is stupid... We can't control with whom we fell in love...” 1 said, thoughtfully.

“Yes... We can't...” he replied.

What should I do now? Oh God! My head is going to explode?

“You think Shane loves Beth for real?” I asked.

“What?” he seemed to be surprised by my question.

“I mean you said the person you love has a girlfriend, and he loves her very much. You also said they are so happy together. But I have never felt that way... Beth is just another girl for Shane...” I said. I wanted to make him believe that he has a chance with Shane.

He was silent for some time... He was just thinking...

“I think he loves her very much... This time he is in a serious relationship..” he finally said.

Serious relationship? My foot!

Shane has never been in a serious relationship... If he ever will be in a serious relationship, that would be with you... I do really know why you are that stupid to even believe that he is in a serious relationship with that girl...

But I didn’t say anything... I wish I could just expose everything to Luke and end his suffering... But on the other hand, Shane asked me to stay out of it.

I don't care what Shane will do if I tell Luke the truth... 1am willing to take any punishment for their happiness... Stil, it is his decision... shane also has privacy and I should respect it...

I think I need more time to think...

Luke's POV

I gave Sarah a lift to the cafe. Then I drove home, as soon as possible.

My head was about to explode. I have never felt this pathetic about myself.

I had to lie to her... God! I hate to lie to her, looking at her eyes...

I made her promise to me that she won't tell any of these with Jake... She may have accepted my lie, but I know with Jake, will be impossible to lie...

Right after come home, I dropped my self to the sofa and shut my eyes... Without even knowing, my mind started to wanc to the past...

I don't know when and where I started to love Jake... He was there with me in my entire life... He is the most important person in my life since I can remember. But even I didn’t realize I love him in this way for a long time. 1 just thought it is love for a brother...

Even before we come to high school, both of us were famous... We were those rich and smart kids everyone adores. We g more than enough attention from girls. Jake didn’t show any interest in any girls. He said he doesn't like girls who only ca about external beauty. He always said he wants someone intelligent and beautiful from the heart...

I also had no interest in girls... I thought it was because my preferences are the same as Jake's. I thought when I meet the right girl I would attract to her... However, eventually, I understood my preferences are not for girls, but for guys... To be more specific my preference was for Jake...

with my family background and everything, I was so scared to accept it. I even tried to start a relationship with a girl just make me believe that I am not gay... But I failed... it only made me feel even worse...

jake thought I was that upset because I broke up with that girl. So, he tried to hook me up with other girls... I couldn't bez it anymore, and when we were in high school, I told him that I am gay...

I was 50 afraid of how he will take it... But he took it so well... He didn't show any difference... He loved and cared about n in the same way he used to do...

I wanted so much to tell him that I love him more than as a friend or a brother... But I had no courage... I loved him too much... I didn’t want to make him worry by any means...

Within this same period, we met Sarah... First, he didn't show any specialty towards her... But day by day, I felt he has som emotions towards her...

One day he told me about his feelings... I still remember that day... It was after a football match... We were just chatting ir his room... We both were so happy... Suddenly, he told me, Sarah is the right girl for him... felt like I lost all my hopes... happiness just vanished...

I was so afraid to reveal my feelings even earlier, but after knowing his feelings it was impossible to let him know...

Time passed... Jake started to love Sarah so much... It became an obsession for him... I started to accept it and help him i every way I could...

How the hell am I suppose to tell Sarah about this truth... She will definitely feel so bad... Both of them have gone throug a lot in their lives... They deserve happiness, and that happiness lies in each other's arms...

I know I was ready to cross any limits to hide the truth from her, but I really wished it would not come this far... Vesterday the whole night, I thought, how am I going to make her believe me... I knew that just refusing the truth won't be sufficient. I had to come up with a powerful lie...

I knew Shane would be an acceptable lie...

He is handsome... He is famous... It will feel totally normal to fell in love with a guy like that...

Even though he sleeps with every girl he sets eyes on, I know he has some special feelings towards me... I don't really thir he is gay... But he definitely has some special feelings for me...

I hate him for how he treats poor Sarah... Sensing that he shows some specialty towards me, made me hate him even more...

But I was ready to even start a relationship with him if it requires to make Jake and Sarah happy...

I don't think I will ever be able to love anyone else in the same way I love Jake... I am willing to stay single, looking at how happy they are together...

I have read somewhere that Love is not about getting someone in your life, it is caring about someone more than our selves... It is so true...

People say love has to be selfish... But as I think it shouldn't... Holding tight is not love, letting go is true love...

Okay, I know I am just speaking bullshit... What to do, I am so desperate...