A Girl Nobody Wanted

Sarah's POV

I stayed in my room until the evening. Since I ate at Jake's, I didn't feel hungry either. jake called me like 3 hours after I came home. He was a bit upset. I could easily recognize it from his voice. He said Luke told about what has happened wit Shane. So his worries are understandable.

it felt like a dream to talk with him like this. Who thought I would be ever able to have him in my life. Mighty Prince Jake.. Around 5 pm, I came outside of my room, and carefully went down, checking where Shane is. The whole house was buriec in deep silence. I think he has gone out.

Thank God!

I first cleaned the kitchen because it was a total mess. My mom should have cooked something in the morning and didn't clean the kitchen. After that, I made my self a coffee and some toasts.

I went back to my room and tried to work on an assignment that is due next week. But my mind was all over the place. I had so many puzzles, I needed solutions for. I want to know from what and whom Jake tries this much to protect me. On the other hand, I want to know the real reason behind Shane's behavior.

I spent nearly 1 hour just looking at my laptop without typing a single word. My life seems to be getting too much complicated.

Without wasting any more time, I went back to the kitchen and made my parent's favorite dishes for dinner. I just wanted calm them down before they punish me for not coming home yesterday.

Vesterday, I didn't even remember that I require to inform my parents. If I had ordinary parents, they would be really worried and ended up going to the police. But I don't have ordinary parents. Maybe they didn’t even notice that I didn't come home yesterday.

During the dinner, they didn't question me where I was last night. Instead, they were just anxious about Shane, because I hasn't come home yet. They were trying to contact him, but his phone was switched off. They even tried reaching his friends. But none of them knew where he is.

“He never does something like this” Mom was almost crying.

“It is still 9. Maybe he forgot to tell about a party, he has to attend.” Dad tried to convince her.

I just clean the dining table and the kitchen in silent.

itis funny to see how much they worried when their 20 years old son got a bit late, but they didn’t even notice their daughter didn't come home yesterday.

“When he went out?” Dad asked from me.

“l am not sure,” I answered.

“There is no point in asking her. She knows nothing. Stupid bitch...” Mom yelled at me.

She is just trying to release her anger and worry on me. It is better to get out of here before she becomes even worse. So finished my work as quick as I could, and went to my room, my only safe place in this hell hole.

I chat with Jake and wait till like 12 am. Shane hasn't come home yet. I went down and saw my parents were still waiting i the living room.

“Why don't you go out and search for him?” Mom was demanding.

“Where should I search? We asked all of his friends, even they don't know where he is. He must be really busy with some work. That's why he couldn't call us.” Dad replied.

“Please God, protect my kid... No one cares about my boy..." Mom started crying and blaming dad.

“He is not a kid anymore. He is 20 now. ” Dad said, angrily.

Shane does all the wicked things, but he never makes my parents worry. If he wants to get drunk or do any kind of a bad thing, he usually stays in a friend's house informing my parents that he is going to study there or some other lie. So, my parents have no idea about Shane's real character. From their point of view, Shane getting late without informing is a thir they should worry about.

I didn't feel like going to my room. No matter how much they hate me, they are my family. I couldn't just leave them to worry alone.

I sat on the staircase, and sent messages to both Jake and Luke, asking if they happen to know where Shane is.

But they didn't have any idea.

Dad was calling everyone trying to find some information. Mom was just crying and complaining.

It was around Tam now, and I was also getting to worry about Shane.

He was sad, and in pain for some reas on. Did he go somewhere because he was sad? No... Shane is not that stupid. He always takes care of him.

It was 2 am now... I was really worried. Did something really happen to him? No...Please, God! Protect him... He is cruel an knows nothing but giving pain to others. But he is still my twin brother. My heart aches for him. Please protect him... Mom was a complete crying mess, and dad was extremely nervous.

suddenly, we heard a car entered our driveway. Dad literally ran to the door, with mom following him.

I also stood up. I was pretty sure that is Shane's car. I am so familiar with its sound.

“Shanett’l heard dad screamed.

Shane entered the house. He was super drunk. He couldn't even stand up straight.

“Honey!” Mom holds him from his hand and wept.

“Don’t worry, mom. I am good.” Shane said, trying to walk toward the staircase.

He stopped as he saw me and stared at me like he just saw me for the first time in his life.

His eyes stretched to a thin line, indicating unbearable pain...

“Shane! Why the hell you drank this much, and why you didn’t inform us you are getting late?” dad yelled at him.

“You know how much you make us worried?” he screamed again.

But Shane didn't answer... He just stared at me.

“Shane! What the hell? I am talking to you." Dad shook him from his hand.

“Dadill Fu off. ” Shane screamed at dad.

All of us got shocked as Shane never speaks to my parents like this.

In no time dad's palm hit Shane's cheek, making his skin dark red.

“How dare you to talk to me like that? Came home all drunk and yelling at me..." Dad tried to hit him again.

But mom stopped him by holding his hand and screaming...

“Dad... am sorry... Please... I want to be alone... he replied, and started walking towards me, having his eyes still focusset on my face.

No need to say how much afraid I was... Is he going to hit me again... I don't even have anyone to protect me now...

But he just walked passed me towards his room.

Mom just dropped to a chair weeping.

“What has happened to my kid...

“I told you once... He is not a kid anymore... Stop crying will you?” Dad screamed.

“sarah!” he then yelled at me.

“Go and see what is he up to..” he ordered.

Without saying anything, I went up. I walked towards his room. His door was closed. I lingered near his room for some tim trying to listen to what is going on...

But I couldn't hear anything... Maybe he fell into sleep... But he just entered the room, how can he sleep this fast?

I stayed for a few more minutes, but no sounds at all.

“He has closed the door, and I think he falls asleep..." I informed dad.

After a few more minutes, we all returned to our own rooms.

But I couldn't really get my mind off of Shane...

He is in real pain... But I couldn't understand the reason behind that... I wish I am close to my brother. so he can just oper up to me and maybe I can help him to get over whatever pestering him.

However, we are not close to each other at all, and there was no way I can go and talk to him about his feelings. I felt so bad about him... I don't like to see him in pain...

After some time, I heard a door opened...

Then another door opened... It was the bathroom next to Shane's room. That door was a bit broken, so it produced an unpleasant sound every time someone tries to open it.

I stayed quiet, listening to the noises.

After a few minutes, I heard the bathroom door opened again.

Maybe Shane went to the bathroom...

Should I get him something to drink? Lime juice or something? I don't really know what should I get to a drunken person. I waited in my room for a few minutes more, thinking should I go out and check on him or not.

Finally, I went out, ready to face any consequences.

A faint light falls on to the corridor from his room. I walked towards his room, making sure not to make any noise.

His door was not fully closed.

“Why you made me this stupid?” his voice raised from inside.

I got panicked... To whom is he talking? Is he calling someone over the phone?

“You know how much I love you, and how much it feels ridiculous to love you?” his frail voice raised again.

He is definitely talking to someone over the phone...

“I tried... I tried my best to hide my feelings... You know how much it hurts to see you every day and not telling you about my feelings? You know how much it hurts to resist my self from kissing you intensely."

“No, you don't know... How could you know, when you get everything you want, and everyone fu**ing loves you..."

“Now you have got someone to love for real ha? You know how it made me felt... 1 feel like wanting to kill my self...” is he crying? His voice sounds like that.

I don't think he is talking over the phone... He doesn't give plenty of time to the other person to talk... He just keeps on talking... Maybe he is just talking to himself... Drunk talking...

“I...1...am a monster... I know you hate me... You feel nothing but disgust for me, dont you? But I can't help but loving you God I fu**ing love you? Why don't you feel me?” he was definitely crying.

Anyway, whom is he referring to? With whom is he in love?

After all, he is not upset because of what happened in the morning... This has nothing to do with me... That is a relief. But...

He must be finally loving a girl for real, after sleeping with almost all the girls in the batch... Shane loves her so much... H is totally crazy about her... But whoever this girls, she does not love him...

He has broke girl's hearts many times. Finally, someone broke his heart...

Poor Shane... I know how hard itis to be in a one-sided love... I stayed like that for years without knowing Jake also had feelings for me... Even Shane doesn't deserve to be suffered from this pain.

I wanted to go and comfort my brother... I know it sounds crazy after how he treats me for my entire life. But I wanted to give him a warm hug, and pat his back, assuring him everything is going to be okay.

Maybe he won't mind me staying with him since he is super drunk.

I gently opened his door a bit more...

“l am not fu**ing GAYIIl Why the fu** you made me a one? Why you made me love you?” his voice raised between cries at the same time.

I froze... Gay! What the hell is he talking about... Is he loving another guy instead of a girl? No way, that could happen... one can be straight as Shane... He had countless girlfriends...

I was just staring at him, without being able to process anything...

He was sitting at his table, looking at his laptop. He had removed his shirt, and he was just in his jeans.

“You know... I can just do anything for you... I don't even care about being gay just for you... Can't you love me back the same way I love you...” he was telling like a mad person while touching his laptop screen.

He just moved a bit from his position, giving me a clear view of his laptop screen.

OH MY GODIN

it was the only thing that came to my mind as I was staring at the image of shirtless Luke smiling so sexily on his laptop screen...