A Girl Nobody Wanted

I was astonished. I think I even forgot to breathe!!! Oh! God! Was he really..Was he really doing that? No way! He was so interestingly looking at a photo of MINE! It was weird for him, to look that interestingly at my photo, and it is weirder for him to zoom in and you know... run his fingers all over my face... well... not my real face, but my face on the screen... I don't know whether he sensed I am right behind him, however, he zoomed out the photo and his finger touched the bac button. That directs to an even more confusing circumstance. His screen displayed a full gallery of a girl's photos and that girl was none other than MEN! He suddenly rosed up putting his phone away and turned around to look at me. I got panicked, like a little girl who got caught red-handed, while doing a sin. I felt guilty. “what the hell are you doing?” he snarled. Did he look angry? Well, I am not sure. I couldn't decipher the feeling on his face. “I... I am... go..water..filter..” avoiding his gaze, I ran to the water filter. Is he looking at me? Will he follow me here? I had a thousand and one questions to get answers. But I was not dared to even look back. It is totally wrong to look at someone else's phone when they are working with it. But what if that someone has so many photos of you on his phone? I couldn't name even a single reason for him to have my photos on his phone. It is completely fine if he has one photo, bi we are talking about a gallery full of photosit and not just that he was fu**ing zoom it and... touching it... Oh God! what is wrong with him? I never expected to observe this kind of a thing from him. He is always this cold, proud person who doesn't give a s**t about any girl. Then what is he doing with my photos? Is he having some kind of a feeling towards me? Not No way That would be the last thing to happen in the world. Someone like him, someone who is everyone's prince charming, to have any feelings for a normal girl like me. Wake up from your dream, girl... those things happen in movies only. But Luke loves me right? He is also, someone I can never believe to love a girl like me. Yeah! you idiot... he loves you... so get your s**t together and forget what you saw... Get over Jake girll I am fed up with yc immature behavior... Focus on the person who loves you... This must be a mistake. Yeah... maybe I didn't see it correctly... maybe that is someone else who was in those photos... “Sarah” I was pulled back to reality as someone shouted at me. It was from Luke!! Then only I realize, that I have open the water filter, and my cup is already filled and water was spilling out. SHIT! How dumb are you actually... “Are you okay?” he asked concernedly. “yeah... yeah... I was just..” I didn't know what to tell. “thinking...” he completed my sentence and grinned. “yeah, thinking...” I smiled. “must be something special... but you look bit panicked... he said concernedly again. “ah, it's nothing..” I said smiling at him and trying to persuade him. “Then okay. I got a bit late. Didn't you take a wash?” “no... I thought it is better to get a wash before going to sleep” “I am already sleepy. Let's finish this soon and go to sleep” without saying anything I smiled at him and nodded my head in agreement. When we come to the table all the people were already there. jake was explaining something. I didn't even dare to look at him. But what is the fault I have done, to feel this much embarrassed? I think he must be feeling guilty way more than me, but instead, he looks so calm and cold. jake kept on explaining things and both Luke and Dean supported him. I couldn't really concentrate on the discussion as my mind was still wandering around those photos. What would be the reason, for him to have all my photos on his phone “sarah!” with Dean's shouting I got panicked and looked at them. I saw Jake was staring at me, with so much anger in his eyes. His whole face has turned red. Luke was looking at me concernedly. Both bob and Glenn was laughing at me. Godit What the hell has happened? “sarah are you sure you okay?” Luke asked. He sounded so bothered. “how many times we called you? what are you thinking that much?” Glenn asked angrily. “This is not a place to think about personal matters. If someone can't understand that 5 other people are just wasting the precious time here when that person is so engaged in thinking and pay no attention to the discussion, I don’t see a point have this damn discussion anymore. I go to sleep. ” Jake basically yelled at us, but his gaze was focussed on me. He look furious and disappointed. Then the next moment, he stood up and stormed off the lecture hall without even looking back It took me a few seconds to process what has just happened. OH! Sarah! You have messed up everything. My eyes filled with tears. I am so stupid, I don't deserve to be happy. I destroy everything. I wanted to go after Jake and a for forgiveness. But more than that, I wanted to run away from everyone and get hide in my cold small room in my home, that is the place I deserve after all. “sarah, if you feeling unwell, please tell me." Luke sounded really sad, there was not even a hint of anger or disappointment. My Lukelll My sweet... sweet... Lukelll vou don’t deserve to be loved by such a gentle person Sarahitl You have your feelings all over the place. Why the hell you can't hold to one decision? “I am fine Luke...I am really sorry... please forgive me. I was in a small problem. But I know I should not make you all wast your time, because of that” “Hey!! don’t think that much. It is a small thing, that can happen to anyone at any time.” Luke tried to convince me. How much you love me, my sweet Luke!!! I really don't deserve your love. “Yeah.. don't worry Sarah. It is not a big thing. I actually don't know, why Jake got that mad” Dean said. I also really don't get that Dean. when I was complaining about guys getting late, he said we have to expect such things when we do teamwork. But now he got this angry because I didn't pay attention? “What you mean. Jake was correct. We all are wasting our time here, looking at all these bullshits. ” Bob yelled at me. “Bobi” Luke yelled at him and gave him a warning look. “Why you bark at me? you didn't try to stop Jake. He can tell whatever he wants. But I can't even open my mouth...” Bob yelled again. “Please stop... please... you don't have to fight. This is all my fault. Please forgive me. We were discussing the architecture right? I promise you, I will come up with the architecture diagram by tomorrow morning. So your time will not be wasted.” said. I couldn't let them bark at each other just because of me. Especially I didn't want to put Luke in trouble. "That is not an easy thing. You may have to wake up all night Sarah. ” Dean stated. " that is totally fine. I will take care of that. You all may go to sleep now.” I said trying to smile. “Let's go buddy” Glenn stood up with Bob, then both of them went out without saying anything else. “You don’t have to do that, Sarah,” Luke said. “That is okay Luke. Please you two go and sleep” “I can't just leave you here and go to sleep,” Luke said frowning. “Its okay Luke! it is really fine” “Dean you go to sleep. I will stay here with Sarah for some time.” Luke said. “If you want I also can stay” Dean suggested. I didn’t know Dean is such a nice person. It seems that there are so much yo don't know Sarah... “No. you g0 to sleep. Tomorrow we have a big day. So take some rest ” Luke replied. “Okay then. I am going. don't try to finish everything, we can do that tomorrow.” Dean said. We both nodded our heads in agreement. Then he left us. There were not many students in the hall at that time. it felt like 1 am all alone with Luke. “Luke. You don’t have to..." before I complete my sentence, he kept his hand on mine and smiled in assurance. He holds my hand for a few seconds. His touch felt really comforting and it actually made me bit calm down. “Let's start work right?” He said while opening his laptop. I smiled and opened my laptop too. We were working, and both of us were really focused on our work. We discussed things and started preparing the diagran suddenly, Luke's phone rang. He answered it. “Hello” I tried to not listen to his conversation. But it was so damn hard as he was talking from right beside me. “no, Sarah is preparing the architecture diagram” “l am helping her.” Who was talking with him? Was it Jake? “You shouldn't have done that” “how I know?” “I understand. if you want then okay” just by hearing, what Luke was replying, it was hard to understand what they were talking about. “Okay Iwill" aye” After finishing his call, he just stared at his phone, for some time and then looked at me. “Sorry about that" “Oh! that's okay” “It was Jake." So I guessed it right. “hmm... he must be really angry.” “if you can go to him and apologize, will it make you happy?” he asked out of nowhere. I got confused. Do I really want to go to him now? After all, he is the one who keeps my photos on his damn phone. All the problems are just because of that. He didn't ever feel any guilt for that, there is no way he didn't notice that I have seen what he was doing with his phone. He is such a co monster! “I don't know," I said, thinking. “well... I think it is better we go and talk to him, you know we have to work together two days more. So we all must be in good terms. * Yeah, that's true. No matter what happened earlier, I had to concentrate on our project. I was actually wasting other's tim “Okay then," I replied. “Let's take our laptops too. I and Jake are in the same room. We can work there and complete this with him. * OH! going to their room! Is that a good idea? I don't really know I can be comfortable with working with Jake right now... AL LES