A Girl Nobody Wanted

Both of them were staring at me like they saw a ghost. I couldn't realize to smile with them or not. I don't know why, but I felt really embarrassed. He asked me to be strong and I did it, so if he witnessed that, why I should feel ashamed, insteac should be overjoyed right? Human minds are really complicated, no one can decipher why we feel, what we feel at sometimes... I just looked down and went to my seat. They didn't say anything but Luke's huge grin was so difficult to unnoticed... However, we began our journey around 7.45. Ms. Smith and Dr. Fedric were with us on our bus. But no one really bothered about them, all of them were screaming and singing, especially Shane and the buddies. I was dying to look back and see where Luke sat, but I was so afraid. I didn't want any more trouble with those buggers. I felt a vibration in my bag. I took out my phone to see, the new message. “You look beautiful @" I couldn't help smiling. “l am just wearing my normal clothes and my hair is also the same. I have no makeup applied as usual. So can't really thi of a reason for that :P" “Is that so... but you indeed look beautiful today... I think this newfound bravery suits you” So he actually saw it... and he found it beautiful! “Someone asked me to be brave no... so I just followed his advice” “That someone must love you so much, to give such a piece of good advice... “I guess 50 :D” “Why just guessing, aren't you sure about that?” “Well... I think I have no doubts about that... “playing with words girlz? @ However, I can't just express my happiness for you” “I can feel it..you know from your words..." “ am 50 looking forward to these 3 days princess... I sense like something big will happen...” What?? Is he going to tell me his identity? Oh!ll My God!!! Is that what is going to happen!t! No Not! I will die from happiness... I was smiling like crazy... but I could even stop it... I was thinking about him, trying to recall past memories. Even though I didn't realize, we actually have a considerable amount of memories since high school. He was always in the shadow... the shadow of Jake... I didn’t even realize his existence those days because I was so damn preoccupied with Jake... “sarah. I got panicked as someone shook my shoulder while yelling at me... “What?” 1 asked automatically from Nelly who was shaking me. “We were calling you didn't you hear?” she asked annoyingly. “Oh! no... I was ... nevermind... what is the matter?” I asked. Oh s**t they might have called me, I didn’t hear a thing, I was attached to my thoughts. “We want you to sing a song for us...” she said giggling. “What me? song??” Okay, what is going to happen right now? From where this stupid suggestion came in the first place? “Oh! sweetheart. Please don't say no... you are one hell of a singer and a guitarist too. Remember that time during high school you sang and played the guitar for us? Oh! I still cherish that... Guys believe me she is a perfect singer. Sarah, plea give us a chance to hear you...” it was Bob. That time at high school... no... God!!! that was a nightmare... It happened at a summer camp. I happened to do a performance at the last moment. I was literally forced to do that. I agreed to sing, but they gave me a guitar too... And I successfully failed at both... I was somewhat good at singing, though didn't know much about playing guitar, but with the nervous, I made a real mess and got humiliated in front of everyone. It is one of the incidents in my life, that I want never to evoke... but thanks to Bob I remember it as it happened just now. So... He is going to take revenge, isn't he? He has chosen a brilliant option... “No... Bob... Can't sing..." I tried to refuse. “No... you can't refuse... please..You must let others here you... see we even got a guitar.” Bob said in a desirous voice while showing me a guitar. Oh God!!! This is really fu**ed up... I can’t go through this... “sarah... sing a song girl... don't be shy...Bob was telling me, how good you were at singing... we didn’t even know you are such a good singer.” Ms. Smith said smiling at me. Oh! Well played! Bob! You have trapped me in a way that I can never escape. I couldn't even believe he even approached, Ms. Smith, because h is normally very famous on avoiding talk with lecturers as much as possible. No doubts... he is coming for revenge... “No Ms. Smith... I don't really... sing... and... I don't feel... well also.” I stammered. “Common Sarah! Don't be afraid... it just your friends... nothing to be worried. Didn't you hear they were singing all the way... no one is judging you..." Ms. Smith said again. Oh Ma'am you know nothing... these people are not my friends in any mean... they are fu**ing hate me, and all they want to make me humiliated... My eyes traveled to Luke, without me even knowing. He was sitting in a seat in the back, Mark was sitting beside him. He was staring at me, and the familiar painful look was filled in his face. “sarah sing for us..” someone screamed, and it was followed by many others. The whole bus was filled with cheers in no time “Sarah! Sarah!!! Sarah” “I think this newfound bravery suits you” his word were echoing in my mind, despite all the noise. I have to keep him proud... can't let him down. “Fine!” I screamed. I think I have never screamed like that. My head felt spinning. But, it was good...everyone stopped their noises. “t will play... I said, looking at Luke. He looked troubled... He was not there in that summer camp, but he may have heard about what happened... So I can't blame him for worrying about me... “terrifict” Bob, grabbed me from my hand and took me to the back. He made me sat beside JAKE! He was sitting in the front seat of Luke's. I felt my heart started to pump furiously! What the hell! Now I have two things to concernitt Oh, I hate sitting near him... it makes me nervous to death... Bob gave me the guitar... I took it and closed my eyes... The fragrance of Jake's cologne was seducing my nostrils. I even felt the warmth of his bod I heard his deep sighs... Forget everything else, Sarah...Forget Luke!!! Forget Jake!!! Focus! You got this!i! Last time, you messed everything up because you got nervous... This time you have to stay calm. They want for you to get humiliated... Don't let them get itil! I tightly closed my eyes... my mind went blank... I see nothing but darkness... I took a deep breath... I traveled my fingers gently on guitar strings... and I started singing... my favorite song... the song I remember every word..The song I always played and sing whenever I want to drown in my thoughts of HIM... Heartbeats fast Colors and promises How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow One step closer... PP PP I was singing closing my eyes and my fingers running vigorously over the guitar... There were just the sound of the bus an my voice blended with the guitar tune, nothing more. Has everyone forgotten to breathe? Am I breathing? I have died every day waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years Ill love you for a thousand more My eyes were filled with tears... I don't know the reason but all the memories of my obsession with Jake were coming to n mind, and they carried me away to a whole new world... where it was him and me... looking into the eyes of each other. I have loved you for a thousand years (ll love you for a thousand more... I finished singing and slowly opened my eyes... those tears held in my closed eyes started running along my cheeks... Everyone was just staring like they were just frozen with a spell... What do you think? What have I done? Oh! Wait!!! Did 1 tell you, after that horrible incident, I went to music practices at school... I learned to play guitar and I trained my voice as well. I did it just to make me happy, but 1 didn’t make any use of it, well until now... So don't afraid... I nailed it... Your girl nailed it, guystt I felt someone keep a hand on my shoulder, I turned around to see Jake was staring at my tear-filled eyes... his eyes looked... well I don't know... so many emotions... that I can't distinguish from each other... his hand felt so warm on my shoulder, even though the thick material of my baggy sweater. His face lit up... God!! it is that smile!!! It is that fu**ing smile!!! Which I saw in my dream... The only difference is this time... it was not a dream... it was real... and it's really happening... OH MY GOD!