A Girl Nobody Wanted

Sarah's POV I was waiting with Shane until we get some news after Jake's surgery. We both were just sitting next to each other quietly. Shane broke that silence from time to time, asking me if I want anything to drink or eat. But I had no appetite for food. Also, I didn’t feel thirsty even though I have cried too much, and my body is actually dehydrating. When he asks about food, I always remember the food I cooked for my Jake... I spent the whole day by cooking his favorit food items, but he is just lying unconsciously in the operation theatre without even knowing what I have prepared for hin We had no way of getting any information about Jake's status if Luke doesn't call us. Though we need to call him every single minute and ask about Jake's condition, we didn’t want to disturb him. So we had to wait nervously for him to call u or come and talk to us. I have been waiting for my whole life for so many things to happen. But none of those times felt this hard. I was so damn scared and nervous. I think that has made me mechanical. I was on auto-pilot mode, and my mind was completely shut. Actually, it is better... Otherwise, if I get emotional, I don't even know I would be able to sit and wait there like that. We have been here for nearly 3 hours now. “Do you want anything to eat or drink?” Shane asked for God knows how many times. I just shook my head just like in the previous times. “I am going to get some water anyway. You must drink at least some water, Sarah... You have utilized all your body water t cry.” he said worriedly. But I didn't feel like saying anything in return. “Don’t go anywhere. I will be right back.” then Shane said and left me. Soon after he went, I saw Jake's father was coming in my direction with two doctors. A few guards and police officers were following them. Does the operation over? I stood up involuntarily. “What is your suggestion then?” I heard Jake's father asked from one of the doctors. They were walking so fast, I couldn't hear anything more than that. God! I wanted so much to run to them and ask how my Jake is... But I was so helpless... Though my Jake treats me like his everything, for these people, I am just no one... Even if I run to them and ask, those guards will throw me out, maybe thos police officers arrest me... I stared for some time at the way they disappeared. When I was about to sit back, thinking should I call Luke, I saw Jake's mom also coming to this direction. She was just sitting in her wheelchair, and another woman was pushing it, just like earlier... When both of them were passing the place I was standing like a statue, another woman came to her. She bent towards Jake's mom and hugged her. Jake's mom started to cry so hard... That woman raised her head, then only I saw who it is. It was Mrs. Bernards, Luke's mom. “Beth... My poor Jackie..” Jake's mom was crying... “Don’t worry, darling... Everything is going to be alright...” Mrs. Bernards said, holding Jake's mom's hands. “I felt something serious was going to happen, Beth... I asked him to stay home because of that, not because of the party. But when this thing with coach Rafel came up, I didn't want to stop him from coming today. I should have been more stri and didn't let him come today. Then my Jackie is still safely at our home. ” Jake's mom was saying between her cries... felt like 1 got just hit by a metal bar right on my head... jake fighting for his life was enough for me to be in the most miserable state I have ever been in my life. But after hearing what Jake's mom's told, I truly felt like it is better to kill myself than knowing my Jake faced this unfortunate incident because of me. He called me in the morning and told me he won't be able to come today because of the celebration he has at home. But how did I react? I got all aggressive, and I talked to him shitty things. I made him sad and helpless... acted like a really dumb high school girl. He said he will come today because he couldn't see me unhappy. But to keep his promise to me, h had to even lie to his mom... Finally, he faced this tragic accident because he came here today. Because I made him come here today... I didn't act so naive and understand his situation, then he won't come here today. He would still be safe at his home, just like his mom said. Not only that, what if that bugger Patterson is behind this accident. If I listened to him and agreed to whatever the s**t he said, my Jake may still be safe. I am the main reason my poor babe in such a critical state... jakes's mom started going in the same direction where his dad went. Mrs. Bernards also walked away with her, holding he hand. I was staring at them with tear-filled eyes until they were out of my vision. Sobbing like crazy, I dropped down to a chair... It was so hard to even breathe. My head was going to explode. I bent dowr and hid my head between my hands. There is no doubt, I am cursed... My unluckiness is affecting him as well. He had this perfect life, and I came to his life and made it a hell... If something happens to my Jake, what am I going to do? Killing my self won't be enough. If something happens to him, it will ruin their parents’ lives as well. It will destroy Luke's life, as we Then it will affect Shane's life as well and thereby my parents’ lives as well... God! All these people, especially the people love more than my life are going to suffer because of my unluckiness... “sarahill Sarah” Shane started shaking me. I didn't even know when he came back. He seemed so worried and panicked But I didn’t want to Lift my head up. “sarah... What the hell has happened...” Shane yelled at me again... But I kept on crying without lifting my head up. “sarah... Tell me what has happened, he is okay, right? ” he asked again with a shaking voice. When I didn't respond, he lifted my head forcefully and removed my hands from covering my face. “Don’t make me go crazy, Sarah... Tell me what the fu** has happened?” he then peeped to my eyes and asked. “Shane!” Luke's voice raised behind us at the same time. We both stood up automatically. Is the operation over? What has happened? I tried to read from his face, but his face was filled with so many emotions, ar it was difficult to detect any emotion separately. My heart was beating so rapidly, and my whole body was cold... “Surgery is over..."Luke said, coming towards us... “50... Shane asked nervously. “It is 50% success...” Luke said. “What does that mean?” Shane asked, confused. “I don't understand it completely, but they could solve the fatal issue he currently had. However, they couldn't totally recover him either. He is in a coma...” when he said the last word, his voice sounded like he was crying. “Comal” me and Shane said in unison. My Jake is in a comalil God! Why are you so cruel? Why you punish him for my cursed life? “Yes... At the time he is stable though he is in a coma, according to the doctors, they can't guarantee anything until he cai out of coma...” Luke said. I felt my legs get lifeless, I couldn't feel my feet anymore... When I was about to fall, Shane put his arm around me and made me leaned to him. Then he made me sit on a chair safely. “Can I... See him?” I asked. At that moment, I was ready to even die if I get a chance to see my Jake and kiss his handsome face for one last time. “l am sorry, Sarah... Only the family members and I are allowed.” Luke said. “You saw him?" I asked. “Yes. For the first time in my life, I felt jealous... I envy Luke because he got to see my Jake, but I didn't get that chance. “His dad is going to take him to Central Hospital.” Luke then said. “What? But he is in a coma. Is it okay to move him that far?” Shane asked, confusedly. “He discussed with doctors. It is possible to move him under heavy supervision of the specialists.” Luke said. “When is he going to move him?” Shane asked. Thank God, I have this twin brother in my life. He asks all the questions that come to my mind as he reads me. “Within a few hours..." Luke said casually. “Within a few hours” I exclaimed. That means he is being taken away from me within a few hours... Even now, I don't get see him, but at least he is there a few meters away from me. But after a few hours, he will be hundreds of miles away fron me... “Yes... He has given the orders to arrange everything to shift him. Luke said. “Don't be sad, Sarah... If they can shift him there, that is the best thing. He can get all the specialized treatments without any delay.” Shane tried to convince me. I know that, but how can I make up my mind when he is that far away from me? I don't think I will be even able to breathe properly... “Guys, I have to go now. I have to arrange a few things. I will call you” Luke said in a hurry, and he left us. We both started at the way Luke disappeared. Luke seemed so different. Reasonably, he is sad and frustrated because th person he loves more than his life is fighting with his life. But I felt something more from his behavior. I felt like he is in angry with me. I also felt like he hates me. Well... He has all the right to be angry with me and hates me. Shane and I stayed at the hospital until they move Jake. But we didn't get any chance to see him. After came home, I directly went to my room, totally ignoring my parents, who were staying in the living room all confuses I was in the same outfit I wore yesterday evening to welcome my babe... But I didn’t have any need to get a shower and change clothing. I dropped down to my bed... I was exhausted both physically and mentally. Anyway, mental exhaustion was worst than the physical one. Can there be any other girl who suffers more than me? When I come so close to get some happiness in my life, something always comes up. If someone else told me that they had faced this much troubles in their lives, I don't even believe them My whole life feels like a drama with neverending problems... God was so generous when he gives unluckiness to my life. I was lost in my own thoughts when someone knocked at my door. “sarah..'shane’s voice raised. “Hmm.” I said. He opened the door and entered. “You still in the same outfit? Get up now,” he said. I didn’t say anything. I didn't change the way I was lying down. “sarah... Get up now..." then he said, raising the volume of his voice. “I don't want to getup, Shane. Please let me be like this.." I said, turning my face away from him. “i*+*t, get up and get ready. We have to leave soon” he then came to me and pulled me from my hand. “Leave... Where?” I asked confusedly. “To where they took your fiance,” Shane said. “What!"l sat on the bed automatically. We are going there... How... It is too far... “I asked Luke to arrange a place for us to stay,” he replied indifferently. “Are we really going there? But that is too far, and what are we gonna do there? Also, how long are we gonna stay?” I aske excitedly. Even the idea that I am going near my babe made me feel a lot better. “Yes, we are really going there. Indeed it is too far, and we don't have a helicopter as they do, but I will drive you there in my poor car. We are going to stay in the central hospital, close to Jake as we are allowed to. We are going to stay there un you want to come back...” Shane said. I should have so many other things to ask if I thought rationally at that moment. I should have asked how are we going tc bear all the expenses. I should have asked about the training session Shane has tomorrow. I should ask what are we goin to do about our lectures. But at that moment, I was not feeling logical at all. So I didn't ask any of those questions. I was just excited like a little girl who was promised to be taken to the park by her parents. I hugged Shane as tightly as I could... What we are going to do now is stupid... But I am so happy that I have a brother who does this stupid thing with me to make me feel better. “I love you so damn much, Shanelt” I whispered. Shane got permission from our dad to go there. He said Luke, he and I are going to stay in the hospital for some time as \ are the closest friends Jake has. Dad didn't try to dig into anything. He just let us go. Even mom didn’t try to say anything, think they both have felt something pretty big has happened, and I think they have understood Jake is close to Shane an me more than they know. After a 6 hours drive, we reached Central hospital. We met Luke there. Luke has arranged a small apartment close to the hospital. Shane and I sat in the corridor that leads to the ICU where they keep my Jake. That is the maximum we could go to. We stayed there for a few hours, and I wanted to use the washroom. So, leaving Sahne there, I went to the washroom. When I was coming out of the washroom, a woman came to me. “sarah Anderson..." she said, looking right into my eyes. “Yes... said, trying to recall who she is. “Il am Sargent Watson." She said, showing me her ID. I looked at her confusedly. What a policewoman has to do with me? “Please follow me, Miss Anderson...” she said. “Why? Why Should I follow you..." 1 asked, both confused and scared. “There is someone who wants to meet you... Please... Come with me... she said politely. But that was not a request, it was an order. I have enough problems already. So I didn't want to protest. Thinking who wants to meet me, I followed her to a room. She opened the door for me and let me in. I was stunned to see the person who was waiting for me in the room...